kembara seseorang

2010-02-25T12:16:00.004+08:00

its been awhile. but maybe, just maybe, some are wondering if i still write. i do, cause i enjoy writing as much. this very blog is the first medium in which it all started, the intention to share my discoveries. they are not new, definitely. because im a traveller, my discoveries come bit by bit. it was my space, like bus stops, to rest and express. Allah knows how much writing, has changed my journey slowly. this traveller though, may need to part. not sure if i will come back. but this remains for my keepsake.

may Allah continue to allow more doors open for us to be closer to Him. i do agree that writings (and reading theirs) have inspired and taught me throughout this journey. yg baik hanya dari Allah, kelemahan adalah dari diri ini. i pray that my friends are doing well. even if they are not, may Allah guide them through that darkness. wallahu'alam.

driven

2009-11-10T09:45:00.009+08:00

every minute i waited was quite torturing. looking at the analogue ticking makes my empty stomach turn upside down. bile lah aku nye turn kan. when my tester arrived, i knew i have to do it! i shouldnt bite my lip. cause that’ll make me even more nervous with those distractions around. i think i want to pour my emotions just like the rain, in the waiting area after the test, and of course, tried to contain it a lil more before mum called. then i realised i was hungry, and ate prata for breakfast. along the way i recited this du’a.

اللَهُمَّ اؤْ جٌرْ نِي فِي مُصِيبَتِي وَاخْلُفْ لِي خَيْرًا مِنْهاَ
Ya Allah berikanlah daku ganjaran pahala pada musibahku ini, dan gantikanlah bagiku yg lebih baik darinya.

i received this du’a from Ustadz in his class last week. Allahuakbar` if i hear correctly, Rasulullah taught this du’a to Ummu Salamah when she lost her husband in a war. then later, nabi received wahyu from Allah to marry Ummu Salamah. who can ask for a better husband than Rasulullah s.a.w? this du’a is read after innalillahi waiina ilaihi raji’un~

oh Allah, i hope to remain positive. sadness is normal after experiencing failure. i just need to overcome it.

begitu lah kisahnya, satu ketika bile tgh ambil TP. well, i'll try again soon. dah lame tak menulis eh. i think i need a new space. i wont delete this blog though, its quite filled with memories.

alhamdulilah school has started. so my nights are filled with lectures, nothing new. my exams in march. and presentations await. night classes aint that bad after all after getting used to it. cume rase mase tu tak dimanfaatkan sepenuhnya. ruginya maryam! insyaAllah im going for an interview this thursday. rabbi yassir.

2009-06-27T11:45:00.001+08:00

Bulan Ramadhan bulan yg berkat
Bulan rahmat dan bulan utama
Pahala digandakan, doa diterima
Bulan Lailatul Qadar yg istimewa

Isilah bulan ini, banyakkan amalan
Beribadah malam, siang berpuasa
Banyakkanlah sedekah jgn dikira
Moga ia menjadi penebus dosa
Membaca Al-Quran jgn dilupakan
Zikir dan Tasbih elok disertakan
Meriahkan Ramadhan dgn bermacam cara
Agar Ramadhan tidak sia-sia...

#Hindarkanlah dosa di setiap anggota
Kalau boleh dosa hati jua
Kerna dosa itu merosakkan pahala
Agar kita tidak mensiakan Ramadhan
Isilah Ramadhan dgn sebaiknya
Kerna ia datang setahun sekali
Tahun hadapan belum tentu jumpa
Kerna kita mati bila-bila masa
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Ramadhan is a blessed month.
Blessing and special month.
Rewards are doubled, prayers are fulfilled.
It is a special month of Lailatul Qadr.

Fill that month, increase good works
Devotion at night, fast at daytime.
Increase the alms, do not be stingy.
Hope it becomes redemption of sins.
Do not forget to read Al-Quran.
It is better to followed by Zikr(Zikrullah) and Tasbih.
Excite the Ramadhan in various ways
So that Ramadhan will not be useless.

#Avoid sins on each limb
Including the sins of heart
Because the sins will damage the rewards
So that we not waste the Ramadhan
Fill the Ramadhan as good as possible
Because it comes only once a year
It is not sure we will meet the next
Ramadhan Because we will die at any time

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Hijjaz - Rahmat Ramadhan
InTeam & Unic - Kemuliaan Ramadhan
Raihan - Harapan Ramdhan

2009-05-31T13:09:00.002+08:00

one who rise, will set one day.

2009-05-19T00:15:00.008+08:00

mushroom soup and bread pudding. nutella do wonders!
recipe here.

my third attempt. and not tired of it. yet.

favourite recipe:
300g golden caster sugar
250g unsalted butter
250g chocolate (at least 70% cocoa solids)
3 large eggs plus 1 extra yolk
60g cocoa powder
60g plain flour
½ tsp baking powder
pinch of salt

to do:
1. pre heat oven at 180C
2. chop some choc and double boil the rest in a bowl
3. cream the butter and sugar til white and fluffy
4. in another bowl, lightly beat the eggs and slowly add to the butter and sugar, with mixer still running
5. pour the melted and chopped chocolate into the mixture(flour, butter, eggs)
6. sift flour, baking powder, cocoa and salt. fold into the mixture.
7. bake for 30minutes (poke the centre with toothpick, it should be softer than the edge. it will solidify when cool)
8. let it cool for about 10 minutes

p/s: recipe can be modified here and there. like instead of 50g, i chopped one bar of van houtten choc. kalau tak suke bnyk sgt chocolate, kurang kan. gula pun! if u like it sweet, like marinah, sprinkle castor sugar on top of the brownie.

so two out! lets try other ~~bookmarked~~recipes` ((:

2009-05-09T16:00:00.001+08:00

2009-05-08T00:26:00.001+08:00

2009-05-04T15:43:00.003+08:00

aishah sent me this song! dulu-dulu mase kami same-same kat pri school, time assembly jek i stil remmber..i'd look forward to Mr Kenneth walking up the hall with his guitar and sang us songs. like sing-a-along session. budak kecik kan, mesti la suke~ kalau ade video, boleh bayangkan uh, dgn cermin mate, mulot komat-kamit bace lirik kat stage, nak nyanyi same2. agaknye main langga je lirik, asal dpt tune. maacam faham je eh. dulu mane ade youtube ni seme. hehe thanks sha!

2009-04-28T12:37:00.004+08:00

sekembalinya diriku dari camp minggu lalu, aku seringkali mengimbau kenangan bersama perserta yg lain. ade yg membuat ku tersenyum, sedih dan juga takut.

untuk menjadi seorng pemimpin, ustadz kate kite perlu ade 5 ciri-ciri ini;
"Maka berkat rahmat Allah, engkau (Muhammad) berlaku lemah lembut terhadap mereka. Sekiranya engkau bersikap keras dan berhati kasar, tentulah mereka menjauhkan diri dari sekitarmu. Kerana itu maafkanlah mereka dan mohonkanlah ampunan untuk mereka, dan bermusyawarahlah dengan mereka dlam urusan itu. Kemudian apabila engkau telah membulatkan tekad, maka bertawakallah kepada Allah. Sungguh Allah mencintai orang yg bertawakal" Surah Al-Imran:159

senyum tu sedekah! maka kite kene lah senyum selalu, tanda salam mesra kite pada teman2. hatta pada binatang sekalipun. ustadz kongsi, 3 kali ustadz bersemuka dgn harimau ketika trekking. saat tu, ustadz ckp, kita takle bergerak, dan kene senyum(tapi jgn la senyum cam kerang busuk kan? senyum top mulut) untuk mengelakkan diri dari menggelabah. kalau seseorang tu panik, badan kite akan mengeluarkan sejenis chemical yg dpt dihidu harimau tersebut dan akan menerkam mangsanya. maka kalau kite senyum, dan berundur dgn perlahan lahan, harimau tidak akan ganggu. tapi jgn la pulak lepas ni, awak pi cari harimau and experimen pulak ye! aniaya..jgn tempah bahaya. tadi pagi ketika perjalanan pulang ke rumah, yam terserempak dgn kucing. usually, my parasympathetic nerve would activate almost instantly. kkdang kucing tu pon terperanjat nampak yam. slowly i try to calm myself down. and i try practising what ustadz shared! (tauu ustadz ckp sal harimau. alah, kucing kan dalam keluarga harimau jugk(; ) so when i saw this cat, i smiled without my teeth and slowwly walked away. alhamdulilah, die tak takot dan tak lari. yam pun got hold of my terkejotness.

jauh side track. bit more k.

last day we had this reflection session. its all about the mind. the trainer narrated our life as a kid til the day we're in the 7 feet temporary 'resting' place. juga untuk ditambahkan lagi kesedihan, topik yg sgt sensitive di hati ialah - keluarga esp ibu abah. abis lah, mata ku kalah saat tu *_* da mmng takle angs gitu. dilakarkan ibu dan abah sanggup berkorban apa saja utk anak, sampai mkn nasi dan kicap, bekerja walaupun sudah berumur. bile kite susah, ibu abah lagi susah *nasib baik bilik tu dimalapkan sikit lampunya. kalau takk, habis lah water face i* selepas muhasabah tadi, kite pun dikehendaki melukis kan visi kami di atas kertas. mmng hebat lah mase tu. dgn mood yg mmng kepiluan disertai dgn lagu winter sonata yg versi instrumental, tangan ku terus lukis dgn sedu sedan. aiyoyo. selepas berkongsi dgn kumpulan sendiri, yam sedih. sebab yam tak pasti sama ada lukisan tersebut hanya angan-angan mat jenin semata atau mmng sesuatu yg boleh dikecapi. sebenarnya mmng ketika saat2 akhir tu, yam teringin utk bertanya bagaimana seseorng itu dpt membezaka antara visi dan angan2, di mana letaknye garisan? bagaimana harus ku jawab jika dipersoalkan, "Mengapa kamu mengatakan sesuatu yg tidak kamu kerjakan?" di surah As-Saff ayat 2. walaubagaimanapun lukisanku iu mmng sesuatu yg ku amat harapkan, jika ia terbaik buatku. takkan kalah sbelum berjuang, ye tak? mudah2an Allah perkenankan. lets include each other in our du'a.

rasenye ade lagi ingin dikongsi. kalau diizinkan ye. wallahu'alam.

2009-04-22T11:47:00.007+08:00

april every year, my father(abah) and mariah's father(ayah) share something in common. not only that, yah's mother and brother as well. it is just another good reason to go out for family reunion dinner. sebenarnya maryam rindu nak bercuti sekeluarga. kalau dulu, kite gi malaysia je. dekat2 pun suke sbab bersama. siti maryam bte abdul rahman, is my name.

Ayah - Aeman

2009-04-07T01:40:00.001+08:00

2009-03-31T11:40:00.010+08:00

Tanya Sama Hati - P ramlee n Normadiah

tanya pada pokok, apa sebab goyang
nanti jawab pokok, angin nan goncang.
tanya sama langit, apa sebab hujan
nanti jawab langit, tanyalah awan

awan nanti kata, aku kandung air
sampai tempat sejuk, aku pun cair
tengok dalam air, nampak bayang-bayang
campak satu batu, bayang pun hilang

tanya sama hati, apa asal sayang
adakah tandanya, nampak dipandang
kumbang rayu bunga, bulan dan bintangnya
punya tanda-tanda, hubungan mesra

tanya sama hati, pernah kah merindu
ingat masa lena, apa mimpimu
masa berjauhan, apa nan dikenang
bila dipahamkan, itulah sayang

jikalau tidak kerana sayang.
kuntuman kasih tak mungkin kembang
andainya jemu mengganti rindu
jambangan mesra tentulah layu.

this is so random. cousin dedicated this song to me! die teringat nenek (tapi dedicate utk i) agaknye((: nice. i miss malay classes.suke jual beli pantun ngan nenek. tapi i nye berterabur, nek ckp. hehe`

2009-03-28T02:41:00.007+08:00

i do not know that heart failure and heart attack are two different things - heart failure is when the heart fails to pump your oxygenated blood to the rest of the body while heart attack occurs when the blood from the rest of the body fail to be circulated to your heart cause blood vessels are blocked. and something she said stung me, "both ways its stil fatal. we die." so that was my lecture just now.

ape khabr semue? may all of you are in the best state of health and iman. health penting tau jadi boleh amal dan tingkatkan iman! speaking of health, makan fiber bnyk-bnyk ye teman2. sebab die serap lemak dlm badan kite(absorbs fats n bile salts in our body). hence prevent the synthesis, the formation of cholestrol! ((:

my lecturer reminded us few times alrdy to eat lots of fibre. mase pertama kali kite belajar ttg fats metabolism, lepas kuliah tu semngat tau nak praktikkan ape yg telah dipelajari, azam nak mkn sesuatu yg mengandungi fibre! "mulai hari ni, saat ni, ku nak mkn fiber!" my friends suggested, wholemeal bread! bile kuliah akhir, naik keretapi..sampai perkampungan daa lewat malam la jugak. tapi memandangkan semngat saye tadi belum pudar, saye pun singgah di supermarket Yes, Prime dan MCP yg dibuka 24jam di estet perumahan. semata-mata nak cari roti tu tadi. Hati ni berbunga tatkala menemui sebantal roti wholemeal! yg terakhir pulak tu. lalu lincah-lincah(hehe) membayarnya di kaunter. bayangkan - dapat amalkan ilmu yg telah dipelajari tadi. mesti seronok! tak percaye, awak cube ((: da sampai rumah, a shocking discovery: roti yg saye beli tu expire pade mlm yg sama. *senyum sorng2 - understatement* tinggal lagi berapa minit je. hee` tu laaah - yg dikejar tak dpt, yg dikendong hampir hampir tercicir!

ni true story tau. yg saye nak kongsi bukan supaya antum bli roti expire eh. hee(; pertama sekali, jgn tergopoh-gopoh cam saye ni, konon nak amalkan ilmu tu tapi tak praktikal. could have been a little bit more patient and wait for the sun to rise. probably the new set of bread will be delivered the next day. kedua, jangan semngat belon mcm saye ni. kene istiqomah! ye tak? tanak la mule-mule je nak mkn fiber, contoh. kene awal, tengah dan akhir. and apapun biarlah sederhana, kurang pun tak, lebih pun tidak. and practise checking expiry dates as much as we checked the ingredients of the food. hee`

oh yes. i did finish up the bread. alhamdulilah. cause the next day - pagi petang mlm makan roti tu. gi sekolah pun bawak bekal roti, tapi dlm letak cheese! hehe i guess i learn the hard way. wallahu'alam.

2009-03-10T11:39:00.001+08:00

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2009-03-03T13:26:00.013+08:00

photo credits: abang hamid!semalam humaira visited cik yam! *cubitpipidiegeram*

kemerah-merahan! wee` the last time i saw her was at a kedai with cik mek & shahril from a clinic. she was sleeping and was stil quite small. then she came by yesterday..bedazzled! hehe` comel nyerr anak kak lina ngan abng hamid! sorry eh kak lina and abng hamid..terperanjat beb. da lame gitu tak jumpe die. hehe baaik nye humaira, die dok je kat depan dgn nenek-nenek(my three aunties). "senyum humaira senyum!" cik mek usik2. and humaira would chuckle and smile so innocently and beautifully. masyaAllah...kids are natural medicine! takya la makan vitamin bnyk2, dok je ngan mrk((: tapi keje lain tak abis uh. hehe. this post is random cause i wan to share that by just looking at babies or young kids enlightens the heart. or tgk langit..or tgk laut..tgk parents...

Imam al-Baihaqi, Imam as-Sayuthi, Imam Ibnu 'Asakir dan Imam Ibnu an-Najjar telah meriwayatkan bahawa Junjungan Nabi s.a.w. bersabda:
"Setiap anak yang baik terhadap kedua ibu-bapanya, yang memandang kepada mereka dengan pandangan rahmat (penuh kasih-sayang), maka ditulis baginya untuk setiap pandangannya itu (seumpama) pahala haji yang mabrur.

Sahabat bertanya: "Kalau dia memandangnya pada setiap hari 100 kali ?"

Junjungan Nabi s.a.w. menjawab: "Ni'mat-ni'mat Allah itu lebih besar dan lebih baik lagi."

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last but not least..Humaira comel eh? (:

2009-02-25T10:30:00.001+08:00

2009-02-08T02:55:00.002+08:00

:: taking small steps ::
mudah-mudahan ia lebih bermakna.

2009-02-05T22:46:00.009+08:00

assalamu'alaikum.

just feel like blogging something. after my exams i will have one week break. i hav a plan. shared with ibu, and been asking her almost every day i think, "bu da pertimbangkan cadangan yam? kalau ok yam telefon. ble bincang straight away..." *padehal blum sedia nak ckp apenye. cume ingat nak dpt izin ibu abah je* ibu wants me to bring bro along. i wish too uh but he's schooling. it has been a place that i would very much love to be in. awhile, away. where i think i cant get here. if not next week, i will stil find the time to be there. i want to be there, dengan izin Allah. ~~crosstheborder~~. mudah mudahan saye diizinkan utk laksanakan niat saye utk ke sane. takpe la kalau kene khidmat lame sikit. do'akan ye. teringin sgt hati ni~

for now, even before the break. lets concentrate on the exams first!

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Sesungguhnya usaha untuk memperbaiki jiwa dan hati merupakan perjalanan yang panjang, memerlukan kesabaran dan latihan.Bagaimanapun, itulah satu-satunya jalan yang benar, dan jalan yang mesti ditempuhi! Tidak ada jalan atau jalan pintas.Dengan demikian ia perlu dilalui dengan penuh kesabaran dan ketabahan.Dan hasil yang menunggu dihadapan amatlah besar dan bernilai sekali.

Zainab Al-Ghazali

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2009-01-30T00:29:00.001+08:00

ALLAH knows what is best for us
So why should we complain
We always want the sunshine
But He knows there must be rain.

We always want laughter
and the merriment of cheer
but our heart will lose
their tenderness
If we never shed a tear.

ALLAH tests us often
with suffering and sorrow
He tests us not to punish us
but to help us meet tomorrow.

For growing trees are strenghtened
if they can withstand the storm
and the sharpness of the chisel
gave the marble its grace and form.

ALLAH tests us often
and for every pain
He gives us
provided we are patient
Is followed by rich gain
So whenever we feel that
everything is going wrong
It is just ALLAH'S way to make our spirit strong.

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shared by a very dear sister. thank you.

2009-01-27T16:23:00.005+08:00

Pesan Yayi
*edited by nenek*

ayun ayun badan,
badan satu bawa mati,
banyak bnyak kan amalan,
untuk bekal akhirat nanti.

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sleepover at grands with family was a retreat. except the tong gas @ nenek's had to go empty on the first day of chinese new year! when there is no delivery. imagine seha n me were in the middle of a cooking mission~~discreetly~~ when the fire went out -_-" baaik uh. ding dong. rice cooker to the rescue. seme tgh tido k. habis lah kite besok pagi, takle masak. we were alrdy imagining nenek, ibu n mak long shaking heads. hehe. nasib baik nenek simpan kuali current. the rest is history.

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perplexed. maryam, patience is the key. miftah!

2009-01-27T01:07:00.003+08:00

2009-01-22T00:14:00.004+08:00

i receive ~~good~~better news. another cousin of ours is getting married(= so that means there'd be three coming. one end of this year, two feb/mar next year. laga laga, mum said. well, that news kind of soothe my ~~brain~~nerves and cheer me up even after my maths test just now.that explains how my maths test was.pfft.

anw aishah and me went home together. discussing about our three cousins' weddings-to-happen. how/where their akad will be - ade nak buat kat masjid(of which we hav msjid sultan,mdg,msjd kassim in mind), kat rumah. ade tanak sanding kat pelamin, ade nak buat kat taman melayu(eh?). hehe macam2 ragam k. aishah ckp she's going to be busy, nak jadi pengapit! hehe then how their children would look like - we think K.U nye anak cute cam hindustan. macam understaning je saye ni kan. grands will be delighted. wait till aunties hear abt this news this saturday~and slowly la kan, we'd relate ourselves into it. nak kahwin tu mmng la best..how bout life after kahwin? part ni, yg da experience je akan faham kot.

anw as we were debating, discussing aishah caught me off guard; "alah yam, kalau takde kan.. ko tinggal ngan nenek, yayi, along" hehe ((= good idea sha! i dont think nenek and yayi mind also. so this year spells j.o.y.o.u.s for us. no idea how it is going to be but like many others,i'm sure its going to be fun. if Allah wills, i'd like to share this happiness. NIKAH! - Connecting People *tak promote tau.ade satu badge tu slogan die cam ni*

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so much about that. on a more real note, blink blink! exams just around the corner. dear friends and families, make du'a for my friends and I who would be sitting for exams this 9th and 11th February. which means.................its verryyyyyy near.

2009-01-21T12:07:00.007+08:00

Matamu ini, hidupkannya dengan kehidupan mata Baginda
Janganlah engkau lihat kepada perkara haram.

Telingamu hidupkannya dengan kehidupan telinga Baginda
Janganlah mendengar dengannya perkara haram.

Jangan engkau tuturakan dengan lidahmu melainkan
ianya menyebabkan engkau bertemu dengn Rasulullah s.a.w.

Jikalau Nabi itu hidup pada hatimu, nescaya engkau tidak boleh
memutuskan silaturrahim yang baginda laranginya.

Sabdanya: "Orang yang memutuskan silaturrahim dilaknati
walaupun meninggal dunia di tengah-tengah Kaabah."

Jikalau Nabi itu hidup pada hatimu, nescaya engkau tidak sanggup
makan sesuap benda halal walaupun ianya seluruh dunia ini.

Jikalau Nabi itu hidup pada hatimu, nescaya engkau tidak
mengutamakan sesuatu yang binasa berbanding yang kekal.
Nescaya engkau tidak cemarkan hatimu yang hidup dgn Rasulullah
dengan maki hamun atau sikap membenci walaupun
terhadap orang yang mencacimu atau menyakitimu.

Jikalau Nabi itu hidup pada hatimu, masa itu tidak akan berlalu melainkan
engkau akan memohon rahsia kehidupan dengan mengingati Allah Taala.

Pohonlah perkara sebegini dan hidupkanlah dengannya
rumahtanggamu bersama sunnah Rasulullah.
Hidupkan masjid-masjidmu dengan membaca Kalam Allah.
Hidupkan jalan-jalanmu dengan adab-adab Rasulullah.
Hidupkan pasar-pasarmu dengan adab serta hukum-hakam Rasulullah.

Sayyidina Ali bin Abi Talib pernah berkata:
"Pasar orang-orang Islam seperti tempat solat mereka yang bersolat"
Iaitu hidup dengan zikir, Ibadah dan muamalah bersama Allah.

Hidupkan pengertian sebegini, nescaya engkau hidup dengan
kehidupan yang tidak akan musnah dan berakhir selama-lamanya.

Sehingga Allah menghimpunkanmu bersama
kehidupan sebenarnya dalam alam barzakhmu.
Kemudian di hari kiamat bersama Nabi Muhammad.
Kemudian di syurga Firdaus yang tertinggi.

Moga moga Allah menjadikan kita dari mereka yang hidup sebegini.
Ya Allah, hidupkan hati kami dengan kehidupan hati kekasihMu
Ya Allah, hidupkan roh-roh kami dengan kehidupan roh kekasihMu
Ya Allah, hidupkan keperibadian kami dengan hidupnya keperibadian kekasihMu
Ya Allah, hidupkan akal-akal kami dengan kehidupan akal kekasihMu
Ya Allah, hidupkan jasad kami dengan adab sunnah dan huku-hakam kekasihMu
Ya Allah, hidupkan seluruh diri kami dengan kehidupan seluruh diri kekasihMu
sehinggalah kami melalui dengan kehidupannya atas kehidupan kalam-Mu.

Maka kami hidup dengan kalam dan kitabMu.
Kemudian kami hidup dengan semua itu beserta ikatan kami denganMu.

Ya Allah, bantulah kami untuk mengingati, mensyukuri, serta ibadah kepadaMu dengan sebaiknya. Himpunkan kami pada hari kiamat bersama ketua orang2 dikasihi

Ya Allah hidupkan kami dengan mencintainya,
Ya Allah hidupkan kecintaannya dalam hati kami,
Ya Allah hidupkan cahayanya dalam batin kami,
Ya Allah hidupkan hidayahnya pada zahir kami,
Ya Allah hidupkan perjalanannya dalam rumahtangga dan kehidupan kami,
Janganlah engkau tanggalkan dari hati kami cahaya ikatan dengan Nabi Muhammad s.a.w.

الهم صلي وسلم وبارك على سيدنا محمد وعلى اله و اصحابه اجمعين

Habib Ali Al-Jufri.

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its so nice and moved to hear history nabi s.a.w in arabic since nabi spoke in arabic too. ohh cam ni rupenye.. u know what i mean? lebih menghayati kot. but of course i need subtitles or a 'live' translator.

2009-01-19T20:20:00.008+08:00

a dearly brother, adorable son, charming cuz and grands' love.
doing his du'a *agaknyer utk sekolah kot.hee kan da pri 1~*

stil in the topic of du'a. for the things that im not entirely prepared to face. yet. im sure no one is prepared, its Allah's will. beyond my reach. having in mind ustadz' advice, kite kene yakin dlm berdo'a. namun sesuatu yg kurancang, inginkan while sharing it with some of my family (though i must have shared it casually,my heart feels otherwise), with their prayers too(i was touched when yayi remmbred), andai Allah tak izinkan, redhalah maryam. and be prepared to feel some pinch of disappointment..some day. to be honest, i became more wary of what lies ahead. looking back, i think its about too long now. while stil rapt in thoughts, i can afford a smile on hearing ketam lemak cili padi! thank you ibu. ~~althoughimaybesecretlyhopingandpraying~~. well, its okay if u dont understand. just writing these thoughts so that one day, i can read them again (:

on an unrelated note, it has been rather windy of late. keeping the windows slightly open to feel the ni'mah while the checkered curtains, as if dancing gracefully to the passing breeze *sejuknyer* although it attracts, as claimed by ibu, habok yet it spells comfort for me along with the constant sound of traffic light just by the road and the occasional ringing from kings' ice-cream lady~

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bak kata Imam Syafie, "Perkara yang paling susah dikecapi dan dinikmati dan sukar perjalanannya ialah menuntut ilmu. Kerana Ilmu memerlukan pengorbanan dari semua segi dan genap." Bittaufiq Wan Najah! thank you very much dearest yah for the constant reminders and the inspiration you blew into me. dah takle sambung ni.. nanti mata air takong attract nyamok pulak~

alhamdulilah.all praises are due to Him who has allowed me to live today, learnt from yesterday and days to come, bidznillah - a chance to cherish, love, give, continue to renew and replenish. Thank you Allah, a video.

2009-01-16T01:42:00.010+08:00

im currently at JR episode 21.mcm lambat kan? memang pun. anw mcm tau2 je eh tgh rindu orng jordon! from this episode i am certain of one place; Amman. rase2 ade jugk episode kat negeri Syria. kene backtrack sikit.siape nak hadiahkan saye tiket ulang alik ke jordon ke..syria ke (;

wish you were here..

terbayang kuih tat yg inti nye chewy dan kuih baulu yg garing2.

2009-01-08T16:22:00.010+08:00

just talked to my father on the phone.havent see and talk(getting my hp tmr) to him since monday cause he left for work right after subuh prayers(when im stil in lala land), i leave for school before he even reach home from work and upon reachng home from school, of course, everyone is asleep(except for bro who'd wait for me). all in all, i miss my family.even when im right here.how about you?

being alone at home allows me to explore. good and sometimes, not. it kills to wait for school. i should work but something is pulling me back seeing my classmates struggle with assignments and revision, working. *maryam, rugi sgt kamu kalau tak memanfaatkan mase dgn sebaiknya* i'm waiting. bros are all(like i have many brothers hehe) in school.so quiet.i decided to do something with the bananas left in the kitchen. tadaa~ freshly baked from the belling! the choc sauce didnt work so it turned out like that,~~likekandang~~. well, no one to share it with me while it is stil hot, and so my dil goes hmm hmm hmm.

inspired by *simply recipes*
p/s: i added choc chips and sizzle cinnamon into the batter. that shall wrap it up (:

selamat mencube (:

2009-01-02T15:32:00.008+08:00

currently watching this episode from Siri Jejak Rasul Season12 (whispers:30episodes altogether) Journey of Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. dulu mase zaman vcr, my parents bought the series. i think i wan to watch them again~ yupyup home stil have vcr player. anw this series is available in vcd and dvd. even better, youtube! not all though. oh sungguh cool rittee. dulu punye dgr suare narrator je.now he is in the picture as well,showing exactly the spot and places. its more interesting the way they narrate the documentary.

other videos:

1. Empire of Faith there are 3 parts.i watched this during MIQ some years ago.

2. Salahuddin Al Ayyubi, animated version. a sister introduced this to me, i enjoyed it(: there are also other non animated ones and movie.

3. Heroes of Islam. will watch this after JR.

3. Hasan Al Banna. some time ago i read tautan hati,like his character in the book not knowing that he really exist. havent finish watching this.

4. National Geographic: Inside Mecca. just found this!had a glimpse of it at aishah's home before.

5. Discovery Channel revealed The Hajj. just found this too. another scv channel.

6. BBC Islamic History of Europe. interesting.

i cant finish all these, with some papers coming.huhu.in time to come, i hope to find more. for now, thats all. indeed internet, if used the right way, is beneficial.

2008-12-31T00:27:00.010+08:00

hamdan lillah akhirnya *oops i forgot to swtich off the oven* ok back. phew~ nasib baik the whole dapur tak berasap.huhu. there goes my bread pudding. as you can see, failed attempt to draw a heart shaped on the plate.nvm. stil eating it now with maple syrup + hot tea (:

here goes:

1. breads
prancis/normal ones. i mixed.

2. sugar
depends on the sweetness level u prefer

3. abt 100ml of coconut milk
(santan!)

4. fresh milk (optional)

5. hot water

mix the bread with hot water. i toasted some of the bread, abit crunchy. i prefer to have chunks in the batter.some may like it smooth. both are fine.one teaspoon of vanillin powder/vanilla essence.if u want it to rise, add baking powder/bicarbonate soda.be sure to sizzle the ground cinnamon.the batter should not be too watery, pour in a tray and bake for abt 15-20 minutes at 150-180 degree celsius. then serve with honey or maple syrup for breakfast with hot tea/coffee/milk. ya i know, what time is it now? breakfast konon -_-"

i think if wan some flavours in it, maybe can add bananas eh? umm. banana muffins sounds good to me. oh i didnt do the cheesey one cause the mixer is down under the cabinet and imagine the noise it'd make. so mr cheesy goes back into the fridge. probably the next time when i'd try sis tifa's recipe (;

2008-12-30T22:07:00.012+08:00

alhamdulilah. soft and calm wind is blowing through my window like every other night. kept myself indoors the whole day today. its fast how sunlight just vanished from my window bringing with it the curtains' shadows, light glow and yellow away. at least to me, its very fast.

had a difficult time trying to focus on preparing for my essay test next week(aishah, i wonder how u did that loooong well-written essay), i can assume it may be because of some things that have been bothering me lately, the book i was reading(and just finished) or mayb me not in the best form(sport shoes have been collecting dust). am quite relaxed, and it worries me. wanted to sleep last night but before i even could or would, i was able to turn off mr AC before its nasty loud ring woke everyone up, or my parents. huhu

i hope im making sense. cause sometimes i think i dont. ok, u know what i feel like doing now? bread pudding and cheese cake. i hope i can make it on time. i havent try the sizzling cinnamon~

2008-12-28T23:09:00.003+08:00

bagaimana dgn hijrahku kali ini? adakah lebih baik dari yg lalu?

rabbi yassir wa la tu'assir rabbi tammim bil khair.

2008-12-28T00:30:00.016+08:00

masih terngiang-ngiang kate2 kak M yg berulangkali bertanye pade kami mase perjumpaan yg lalu, lebih kurang, "apekah strategi kamu semue utk pertingkatkn iman? ade tak?" kalau kat sekolah, contohnye, nak dpt cemerlang utk mata pelajaran, ah siap susun buku2 utk belajar ni ulangkaji tu, mcm2. pendek kate, kalau dlm mimpi tu boleh belajar, nak bawak sekali buku tidur same -_-" kite mmng takle ukur iman kite, apetah lagi iman orang lain. kalaulah ade imanometer, ala thermometer gitu baru kot kite tau sama ada iman kite ni tgh tinggi ke rendah. al-maklum, iman kite kan yazid wa yangkus~ tetapi memandangkan takde alat ukuran tersebut, sudah pasti kite memerlukan strategi! apa strategi 2009/1430H? jom kite fikir2 kan (;

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friday is a 'fate' day. everyone, or maybe just two of my friends shared their experiences :p since classes are only at night hence time spent in school seem like the whole day. anw kak A was sharing with me and friend, that she admired a guy for 10years *gasp* secretly. well, that guy didnt know until one day she braved herself to ask, but was disappointed. huhu shortly after, she was introduced to a guy, and within 3 months they got got engaged. soon they got married. now with 2 adorable kids! soleh wa solehah insyaAllah (: same night, our group was on the way back home, i asked "Gopinath, why did you choose mdis? why not nus or ntu?" since he mentioned ntu and nus are ranked quite top in the world. he alrdy got his bachelor in India majoring in biochemistry so i dont see why he cant do another bachelor in our local universities. he mouthed "fate!" as he gestured his three fingers on his forehead. side track: he shared that it takes 8min 20seconds for light from the sun to reach the earth! subhanaAllah. and 1hour to reach pluto!

-yah, if ur thinking what im thinking..im halfway there-

sometimes, we can do so much; prayed, tried(in our own ways), put in much effort but if ur fated not to be, redha~ that is if we are entirely sure that we have done, did our best. Allah knows better than us, if not, Allah knows BEST! i may think that it is good for me, that if i have/own it, i will be very happy. shame on me. Allah promised so many better things in hereafter, yet im stil chasing the less important.

wallahu'alam.

2008-12-26T15:04:00.003+08:00

"Wahai Tuhanku, ilhamkanlah daku supaya tetap bersyukur akan nikmatMu yang Engkau kurniakan kepadaku dan kepada ibubapaku, dan supaya aku tetap mengerjakan amal soleh yang Engkau redai; dan jadikanlah sifat-sifat kebaikan meresap masuk ke dalam jiwa zuriat keturunanku. Sesungguhnya aku bertaubat kepadaMu dan sesungguhnya aku dari orang-orang Islam(yang tunduk patuh kepadaMu)"

- Surah Al-Ahqaaf:15

2008-12-22T10:23:00.006+08:00

back and better. bro helped with comp last night. alhamdulilah.

speaking of last night, i set alarm at nine-fifty hoping to wake up to do some revision. wasnt even 20minutes or so i closed my eyes, even before my alarm sounds, the roars of brothers in the living room alarmed me. it must be the football. bachin nye budak. rupenye opponent scored. malik standing mcm nak masok tv. before i could say a thing, "kak.tgh tension nii" i dun wan to sound like macam faham. biarkan lah diorng. u can imagine the uuuu aaaaa eeee! skejap2 bgn skejap2 baring skejap2 dudok. finally, punah ranah lah harapan mereka untuk menyaksikan negara tercinta bertanding di peringkat finals kat tv. huhu. it didnt end there, they had their own debrief, "patutnye masokkan ___" "bnyk chance tau.." talk is easy y'know. cube i letak ni due orng kat padang...entah ape jadi~

then we watched the last thirty minutes, Curse of the Golden Flower. ramai sgt orng kat dlm istana emperor tu. bak kate adik, cam nak national day. especially the last part, mase tgh perang. indeed, unity is strength.

exams are around the corner. study schedule has been arranged with friends. dunno how to read and understand so much. make du'a for me ya. mrt train back and forth is so routine. night walk helps. feel like going somewhere.seberang lautan ke, padang pasir ke, naik gunong ke, masok hutan, buat bebola salji ke... anywhere in mind? (:

"one person can make a difference but every person should try." John F.Kennedy

2008-12-16T14:13:00.007+08:00

alhamdulilah. syukur sgt dgn ni'mah masa yg telah dianugerahkan Allah swt.

telah berakhir 'camp' 3H2M tepat pade jam 1030pagi tadi bersama keluarga. gembiranya dpt bersama mereka yg sgt disayangi(walaupun tidak dilafaz) mengatasi keletihan.terhiburnya hati ni bila dpt berkongsi masa bersama. masih terbyang-bayang senyuman yg terpancar pade raut wajah yayi, nenek, makcik2, pakcik2 dan sepupu2ku.

sgt ku terharu ketika yayi acap kali mengucapkan terima kasih dgn pemberian2 yg diterima. "mcm mane yayi nak balas jasa kamu seme.." "mcm mane yayi nak bayar.." andai boleh ku katakan sesuatu, "jasa yayi tak mungkin dpt dibalas dgn seluruh wang jika dikumpul dari semue dan selainnye" hilaian tawa semue menghiburkan hati tika nenek diusik menantu2 dan anak2!

sayangnya kali ni mungkin sedikit berbeza dgn yg lepas kerana beberapa ahli yg 'hilang'. namun tidak kami lupa mereka. senantiasa dlm do'a kami.

pictures updates insyaAllah. i have 900+ waiting. bayangkan!

2008-12-11T14:58:00.026+08:00

updates from last saturday til monday. pictures will do the story telling.

at nenek's home. after which we went ntuc for groceries.

'Eidil Adha @ Masjid Darul Ghufran

(: nampak cam best kan? memang best puunnn.

petang & malam raya

cik wan bought UpinIpin. kite tgk lepas solat isyak & takbir. padehal hari raya haji. heh. nenek pon ckp cute ^_^

Close Affair

if u wonder, i pun wonder mcm mane mak long boleh termasak sebanyak tu - lopez, abuk2(2 macam), blueberry roll, kek marble, badak berendam, bagedil(ade crumbs), soto ayam and babat. hehe. cheesecake(halal tau.susah nak cari) tu i beli kat ntuc hougang :p

abng sedare tunang but no pics of tunangnye but lots of ours.hee. mentioned before that we were not allowed to go:p takpe, fret not. cause we had a good time at Hougang's NTUC(yelar brape bnyk kali nak ckp eh.orng pun tak heran la yam) ibu bli kuali tefal(yg bile da panas,tgh jadi merah tuu) for $20+ je tau. selalu $60-100++. sale sale. hehe (:

im off now. suke tak gamba warna warni?

2008-12-09T11:06:00.003+08:00

every year after solat raye, my family would visit my paternal eldest auntie's, then to my maternal grandparents'. this time, my auntie and family were away therefore *jengjengjeng* the normal raye routine allows new changes. with that, alhamdulilah i get to see kambings at the closest distance in the pen and during slaughter. as i watched, i remmbred my experience during lab animal science tech(LAST) practicals, not for sacrifice of course. that module is useful after all for the various techniques i learnt although i handled nothing as big as kambing biri biri, (imagine Dr. Jomer "ok class, today's pract we are going to handle... he opens the animal facility room, sheep!" oh no! *drama sikit* in disbelief) they are somewhat similar - being restrained, carried, massaged(to relax the kambing), talked to(in this case, there was takbir) and prepared using sharpest knives to ensure no further distress during the slaughter. it was truly a moment i cherished walaupun seketika. despite the rain, many braved it to witness the sacrifice together. masyaAllah these 6000++ sheeps will be among the jannah's occupants,insyaAllah. the next question for me is..do i wan to be amongst them too?

ustazah, nanti rindu macam maner?
to all the sisters yesterday, i had a pleasant time being with all. semue tau. takde yg terkecuali~ you you and yes...you!

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after that i head to grands' home. i was very late of course and minachi was already turning to mrs hulk. hua hua. settling down, i asked her a notsointelligent question - "dik, slalu hari raye haji umah nenek, kite mintak maaf tak dik? tadi salam2?" i thought i missed it. strangely i cant remmbr what we did last raye. even at my own home.

she was already a little angry+restless so she gave me this kak-can-i-sepak-u kind of look
hehe. sorry la dik~ pakai da jambu air sirap mane le camtu kan? *smile*

captured moments @ zahrataani!

eid mubarak! *takbir*
Alhamdulilah allazii bini'matihii tatimmussoolihat

2008-12-06T23:50:00.008+08:00

"sedulang ni je ke?"
"dah? alat alat cincin?"

ade yg tertanya-tanya.

banyak dulang orang mengata, sikit pun orang tanye. pade yam, apepun biarlah sederhana, ikut kemampuan masing masing dan perjanjian di antara dua pihak.

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"abng ----, mcm mane persiapan nanti? seme ok, seratus ribu ade? "
"seratus sen ade la yam. lepas ni ikat perot. lapar je la nampaknye..."

ishk. kesiaan nyer! mungkin abng ---- gurau~tapi so far la kan, from personal observation, kedua abng sedare ku ni, kerje nye tungkus lumus, banting tulang kerat(bak kate kak ummi) siang dan mlm demi mase depan. wawasan 2009 dan 2010. saving to reach 'that' amount or even more.

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sementara menunggu yg lain pulang, bros, me, ibu, ibu sal, cik mohd, aishah and me went ntuc xtra at hougang. kitorng tak ikot rombongan anta cincin sbab ade quota. anw besar sgt ntuc saner. seronok! got cheesecake n blurberry. finally i found ground cinnamon (:

"cik mohd, mahal kan hantaran skrng?? sampai orng ckp $10 000 tu 'market' price."
"zaman nabi mane ade cam ni seme. kite nak jual anak kite ke bile die kahwin? bnyk contoh skrng, hantaran sampai beribu-ribu, nombor seme same..ape jadi??kite nak berkat."

you dont wan to know what my brothers said after cik mohd said all that.

*i just read from a book, bagaimana nabi s.a.w sgt menitikberatkan kesederhanaan dan sifat qanaah, yakni kepuasan hati, kerana ia merupakan kekayaan yg hakiki. Fatimah r.a. ketika hendak dinikahkan dgn Ali Bin Abi Talib, sahabat yg hadir tertanya-tanya apakah yg disiapkan oleh Rasulullah s.a.w untuk puteri tercinta dan menantu kesayangan? ternyata Nabi s.a.w siapkan gandum yg telah digiling, kulit binatang yg disamak, cerek dan sebuah pinggan. Fatimah pula memakai pakaian yg baik walaupun mempunyai tampalan-tampalan di atasnya tanpa perhiasan yg mahal*

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seme da pulang. yg kite2 ni yg tak dpt pi ni kan,gilir2 tgk gamba kat camera. skali yayi bagi kata2 mutiara.

"belum kahwin... jgn tgk gamba2 ni seme.(ni utk yg bertunang la kan. yg kite2 prempuan kot takle kan) zina mata... zina hati"

interesting reads: ada ape2 ke?, soal jawab.

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my nenek crite, abng ---- tak lalu makan the day before. mak long pulak(my auntie), terlupe hari.

on the actual day, she forgot where she placed her wallet! cause she kept her laci key in it, and the ring is in the locked laci . waduuh. gamat~ you know where the wallet was found?

dalam washing machine! yg baru abis cuci baju. imagine the baju with all the duit basah and kertas2 phonebook yg tak dpt diselamatkan *-*

pak long coudnt find his cream baju kurong. seha, adik nye pulak, siap macam die yg nak tunang. danial is the only steady one. hehe

nek - "ni baruu tunang! "
bro - "ah nek, kak seha ni lambat btol nak siap. agaknye nanti nak kahwin. die mandi 2 minggu sblmnye. pastu besok nak kawin, mlm ni kene siap siang2"

2008-12-02T04:10:00.007+08:00

bile hatiku sedang rindu,
kepada Allah ku mengadu.

kalau hati bertanya selalu,
Al-Qur'an jadi rujukanku.

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يا مقلب القلوب ثبت قلبي على دينك
ya muqollibal quluub thabbit qolbii 'alaa diinik
Wahai dikau(Allah) yang membolak balikkan hati, tetapkan hatiku kepada agamaMu.

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"Teruskan berdu’a, dan teruskan perjuangan kita memperbaiki diri. insyaAllah jodoh kita datang juga nanti, dengan pasangan yang soleh yg dapat membimbing kita ke jalan yg diredhai-Nya. Amiin!" - from dear sister.

Allahumma amiiin.

2008-12-01T15:22:00.023+08:00

"there's bound to be discontentment no matter which way it went. Sticks and stones may break my bones but words can never hurt me. I believe everyone is entitled to their own opinion.."

it has nothing to do with me, this quote. i agree to it except the part words can never hurt me.. i'd change to words can break hearts of many. kerana mulut...*complete the simpulan bahasa* tapi tak lah kite nak pi bantai die kan? (:

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my very the scary encounter last week. i ditegur gitu, da bahase kan dgn berlapik-lapik bahasenye, i pun da rase bersalah. mcm terjelepok gitu kat tanah *exaggerate nye gue ni* walaubagaimanpun ku hargai kejujuran, katekan yg benar walaupun pahit. jadi i telan yg pahit tu, tapi cam tak tertelan air liur sendiri takot orng nmpak. padehal kai tudung~mane orng le nampak eh? selepas tu ku pun membawa diri..nak pi mintak maaf. takkan nak jadi stone cold kan? kalau tak.. takle tido nampaknye malam nanti~ hati ku dugdupdugdup ibarat nak jumpe hakim mahkamah. da buat salah, kene bersiap sedia menghadapi sebarang hukuman *kecuali tali gantung~ takkan la kesalahan i tu kot sampai kene hang kan! tak agak2* skali die kate die gurau je, nak bully murid die! *_* kalau lagi ramai yg sebegini, boleh pengsan onthespot dibuatnye. siap senyum2 sumbing..tak bagi chance. alhamdulilah die tak marah memanjang, syukur sgt~ kalau tak, susah nanti. sungguhpun die kate gitu, i learnt from it almost immediately. style baru uh, da kene marah..20 minit later, the table was turned around. rase cam masok gotcha atau justforlaugh gitu.

having said that, i hope i can maintain good and healthy relationship with all my teachers. sbab mereka lah, dengan izin Allah, ku terus dpt timba ilmuNya yg sungguh luas ini.

2008-11-30T19:46:00.009+08:00

"Ingatlah. Sesungguhnya jenis manusia tetap melampaui batas (yang sepatutnya atau yang sewajibnya). Dengan sebab ia melihat dirinya sudah cukup apa yang dihajatinya."

Surah Al-Alaq:6-7

langsung ustaz elaborated mengenai penyakit riya'. self yearns for more of these which gets lesser these days.

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today she is one year older and wiser, insyaAllah.i'll always remmbr the day i was touched by her sharings when discussed on ciri ciri wanita solehah. that night was special.

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semoga hati ini terpilih.

2008-11-28T16:03:00.006+08:00

pejam celik.dah 5 minggu ku di sekolah.cepat nye mase berlalu.i've made a little more friends. adapting to the routine..insyaAllah.

kalau dulu kan assignment bagi je kat guru atau slot dlm box lecturer. skrng kene beratur kat student service centre, wait for the officers to sign and acknowlegde my assignment on a receipt. nampaknye process die ade sikit panjang lebar. heh~ and then the new matric card, my face is almost invisible, mcm la kite ni gelap sgt ;) huhu.

if there is just one thing i appreciate most and miss doing, is writing sidenotes during lecture. smlm kan kite kemas2 books and notes yg sudah menggunung tinggi, to make way for the new ones. i browsed through my old notes and i missed doing just that - notes taking. now i stil can, but not as detailed. jadi kene la rajinkan diri bace buku reference and tanye2 lecturer. huhu

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macam mane agaknye liyana, farhana and the rest eh..yg mungkin skrng sedang giat presenting their major project posters to their evaluators. semoga seme tenang2 ye~

to mariah yg hampir2 da selesai urusan kat yarmouk, do'a bnyk2 utk sekolah/yg selainnye.
to kak huda, tahniah sbab dpt masuk tarablus. dan juge pade akhowat yg lain juge tgh blaja luar negeri, semoga seme baik2 ye (:

2008-11-27T14:58:00.007+08:00

is it worth it to cause so much blood shed..
is it worth it to harbor such enmity..
is it worth it to break up families..
is it worth it?

for a diamond.

i dont really fancy violent and ghost movies while my nenek is extremely opposite. heh~ she just watched a movie that got me glued awhile.betol ke keadaan mereka sampai gitu skali? budak2 ni pegang senjata betol, tembak2. devastating. circumstances make u do things beyond imagination. i like the fatherson relationship - soloman n diya.

then i read up abit on diamond conflict.

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back to local updates. alhamdulilah, ibu izinkan (=

2008-11-25T10:55:00.027+08:00

if there is one reason i like abt her talkshow: it touched hearts. especially those episodes that are related to life. watch them - O Ambassadors and Change. im stil watching it now.

passionate.dedicated.cherish.appreciate.difference.kenyan.prayed.smile.school.

*to be continued*

the school that they built right from scratch(a flat land), made a lot of differences to those children. and i wonder which part of the world have i not discovered, seen or know. may i request for an international ~~free~~channel, Life Discovery across the world? regardless of nationality, race, language or religion. with subtitles please.

anyway, if they can make a difference, we can too. it doesnt have to be big kan? apparently we are not earning manydigits per month, with the current economic downturn. just bit by bit. sikit sikit kan lama lama jadi bukit! how? good question. lets spent some time to think about it. nevertheless we are all entitled to our own ways of contributing. its very flexible (:

**
read BH article dated 10 October 2008, titled Santunan golongan belia sebagai tunggak harapan; Islam sentiasa mengambil berat terhadap golongan belia... (article elaborates on the challenges golongan belia facing now and the young adults who fought during Nabi saw's time)

Dalam hadis riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim, Rasulullah saw bersabdsa yg maksudnya:
"Tujuh golongan yang akan dilindungi Allah pada hari yang tiada pearlindungan kecuali perlindunganNya, antaranya ialah pemuda yang dibesarkan dalam keadaan mentaati Allah."

Rasulullah saw juga bersabda yang maksudnya "Sebaik-baik manusia ialah yang dapat memberi manfaat kepada orang lain." (riwayat Imam Tabrani)

Learn from experience and reflection needs an action! - Dr M.

2008-11-24T15:52:00.013+08:00

brothers have been doing duo choir since morn. happy taktauasal. lagu sedap pulak tu. marinah pun same, gembire mcm besok raye. takpe, ku terhibur dgn gelagat mereka. alhamdulilah~ officially finished my first school assignment. oh semngat ni ku nak menapak ke sekolah.

oatsmeal is healthy for breakfast. mr phil cheese is stil in the fridge waiting. ibu said make biscuits,but im craving for cheesecake.i guess he has to wait awhile longer in there while i browse for other interesting recipes. any recommendations?

look forward to december-grandparents. engagement. family. cousins. chalet. birthdays. kambing biri biri. food. discounts. of course revisions will come in between. that goes without saying (;

2008-11-23T00:47:00.015+08:00

just now ustadz taught something that i've learnt before but hidden somewhere in my million brain cells. apparently ustadz said we all seemed to have the dayak lines on our foreheads. tak faham la tuu. conpuse~ missed some examples here and there while trying to understand and comprehend the whole thing again. missed the saturday home arabic classes. recited the du'a my dear ustzh shared..

Allahummar zuqnaa 'ilman laa yunsaa (Do'a Abu Hurairah r.a)

Ya Allah rezekikan kami ilmu yg tidak dilupai

dan do'a-do'a belajar yg lain~

sayang kan kalau lupe :( i shdnt. susah payah pi belajar, lagi lagi saat dah nak siap-siap tu kan, ade je bisik-bisik kat telinge: penat pulak hari ni. assignment blom habis uh. hujan lebat. next week pun boleh. bile da mule symptoms penyakit tu, kene la kuatkan semngat utk pi jugak kelas yg hanya seminggu sekali. istiqomah.. dah tu? senang senang je kamu lupe ye yam *huhu*

2008-11-22T12:28:00.008+08:00

have u ever tried doing sumthing on ur own, for own reasons and end up messing it?

i have. and bro just did. he wan tp eat burger ala ramly for breakfast. they used butter to fry the meat, he wan to do the same thing,padehal ade minyak masak tau. he messed it up. he softened the butter in the rice cooker and forgot all about it. causing the rice to be soaked in melted butter. all this happen in the kitchen while i was in the room. he didnt tell me since he was trying to quietly clean the 'evidence'. cause he think i'd make the situation worse and woke abah up who just came home from work. ibu had to call me from work and tell me abt it.

"kak buat ape tu? tak tau ke ape jadi kat dapur??"

"ape jadi?"

"abang tu. die .........."

i pun gi la kitchen to see it for myself. the moment he saw me, we laughed (;

im glad it was a mistake. cause we will learn from it better. dun worry he knows im sharing this in my blog. cooking tips: never melt butter in rice cooker (:

2008-11-20T12:45:00.004+08:00

Pemergianmu

(Ya Rasulallah…)

Kau masih tersenyum mengubat lara

Selindung derita yang kau rasa

Senyuman yang mententeramkan

Setiap insan yang kebimbangan

Hakikatnya, tak tertanggung lagi derita

Di pangkuan isterimu Humaira’

Menunggu saat ketikanya

Diangkat rohmu bertemu Yang Esa

Tangan dicelup di bejana air

Kau sapu di muka mengurangkan pedih

Beralun zikir menutur kasih

Pada umat dan akhirat

Dan tibalah waktu ajal bertamu

Penuh ketenangan jiwamu berlalu

Linangan air mata syahdu

Iringi pemergianmu

Sukarnya untuk umat menerima

Bahkan payah untuk Umar mempercaya

Tetapi iman merelakan jua

Bahawa manusia ‘kan mati akhirnya

Tak terlafaz kata mengungkap hiba

Gerhanalah seluruh semesta

Walaupun kau telah tiada

Bersemarak cintamu selamanya

Ya Rasulallah

Kau tinggalkan kami warisan yang abadi

Dan bersaksilah sesungguhnya

Kami merinduimu.

2008-11-19T07:38:00.004+08:00

Better to Give

Qisas.com

A young man, a student in one of the universities, was one day taking a walk with a Professor, who was commonly called the student’s friend, from his kindness to those who waited on his instructions.

As they went along,they saw lying in the path a pair of old shoes, which they supposed to belong to a poor man who was employed in a field close by,and who had nearly finished his day’s work.

The student turned to the professor, saying: “Let us play the man a trick: we will hide his shoes, and conceal ourselves behind those bushes, and wait to see his perplexity when he cannot find them.”

“My young friend,” answered the professor, “we should never amuse ourselves at the expense of the poor. But you are rich, and may give yourself a much greater pleasure by means of this poor man. Put a coin in each shoe, and then we will hide ourselves and watch how this affects him.”

The student did so and they both placed themselves behind the bushes close by. The poor man soon finished his work, and came across the field to the path where he had left his coat and shoes.

While putting on his coat he slipped his foot into one of his shoes, but feeling something hard, he stooped down to feel what it was, and found the coin. Astonishment and wonder were seen upon his countenance. He gazed upon the coin, turned it around, and looked at it again and again.

He then looked around him on all sides, but no person was to be seen. He now put the money into his pocket, and proceeded to put on the other shoe; but his surprise was doubled on finding the other coin.

His feelings overcame him; he fell upon his knees, looked up to the heavens and uttered aloud a fervent thanksgiving in which he spoke of his wife who was sick and helpless, and his children without bread, whom this timely bounty, from some unknown hand,would save from perishing.

The student stood there deeply affected, and his eyes filled with tears. “Now,” said the professor, are you not much better pleased than if you had played your intended trick?”

The youth replied, “You have taught me a lesson which I will never forget. I feel now the truth of these words, which I never understood before: “It’s more blessed to give than to receive.”

Abdullah bin Abbas (radi Allahu anhu) reported that the Prophet (sallAllahu alaiyhi wassallam) said that encouraging good, prohibiting evil, lifting the burden of the weak person and removing an offensive thing from a path are all acceptable prayers to Allah.[ibn Majah]

2008-11-18T02:30:00.004+08:00

In the sea there are countless treasures,

But if you desire safety, it is on the shore.

[Sa’di]

this quote reminds me of 2 things - my snorkelling experience at Redang Island. huhu i miss the clear blue crystal sea n of course frends who made my experience there even more beautiful. secondly my choice, if i wan to make that is, to experience or see more treasures hidden beneath.

2008-11-15T23:51:00.000+08:00

iluvislam

2008-11-13T23:10:00.022+08:00

im suppose to be reading and revising my immunology notes. look what i end up doing. no class tonight meaning one day rest. stil having some minor unrest but that aside. went out with nenek and man along for a stroll. where else if not tampines mall and century square.nenek nak bli jam. her current watch is not water resistent. i think the salesperson, who is a middle-aged aunt, understands malay a little but i just helped to translate here and there. nenek will stil carry on conversing in malay. jadi lah cam ayam bual ngan itik.

nek: wa da pernah bli jam kat sini la. wa susah la nak amik air sembahyang, kene bukak ini jam. ketip die susah!

her: oh i understand. but this is good auntie. i check for you, got 50m water resistant. watch maker, swiss. veery good one! you can even swim*with the swimming gesture* and this watch wont get spoilt.

nek: wa tau itu mcm. tapi dulu wa ade bli itu jam. skali kene air ah, karat tau. then wa datang repair, die ckp tak bole. serik la nak bli.

her: oh this watch has a warranty up to 2 years. dont worry auntie. anything you can come back here, we can send the repair for you. i can give you my name card.

nek: dulu wa anta repair abe masih rosak. karat itu dalam. wa cuci tgn kene air. amik semayang nak bukak lambat lah. skali nanti wa pergi sembahyang ah, jam pulak lupa.

her: hehe.i also sometimes go pray i forgot my watch. dont worry this watch easy to wear, i can teach you. you can bring to shower, swim, wash hand, in the rain.

insert my translations here and there. and nenek will go on saying that she needs a watch with an easier way to wear on and take off.and how she is afraid that she will be cheated again. after much translation, explaination..she bought.its very nice.the salesperson is sooo sweet. i even took a picture of them together! thumbs up for good and exemplary service~ nenek very telaten, she ensure the thing that she wants to buy walaupun murah, tapi yg baik. pokoknye, nek ckp jgn sembrono(asal boleh je). kerje apepun, biar sempurna~ tadi kan she nak bungkuskan lauk dlm container, siap wrap the container dgn plastic 2 kali, ikat ketat-ketat before putting it in another plastic bag, 2 lapis!

me: nek, kalau yg nak mkn lapa sgt kan nek, nak tunggu habis bukak bungkus nenek ni..tros kenyang nek, masuk angin. naik angin pon boleh! :p
nek: jadi tak tumpah la~ ko diam2. *ehehe*

anw back to the 'stroll'

we had lunch at swensen. a very nice corner facing the road. and as usual, swensen has a very pleasant ambience. she was a lil excited cause she only get to eat at these places when she's with her grandchildren.if with yayi, he prefers places like bedok corner, as-solihin, afghanistan, saffron.so nek ordered sandwich. man along had fish&chips. i didnt feel like having any.

nek: ni ape ni yam? *tunjuk kat menu*
me: mussels nek. ape eh ni dlm bahase melayu?

nek: kite tanye die, die tanye kite balik! setahu nenek muscle yg kat badan tu kan? *picit arm*

me: hehe. aah! cam kerang kot.

food arrived.

nek: *rase ikan* hmmmm. sedap jugak eh ikan ni!
me: memang sedap!
nek: entah entah...ikan jaws tak??? *and i think nek raised her voice.nasib baik takde staff melayu berdekatan*
me: ishk! takde lah. mane adeerrr hehe
nek: mane tau??? die da salut tepong ni seme, tak nampak pon ikan ape *tapi dgn selerenye nenek mkn thesocalled 'jaws'*

i watched oprah yesterday when they had the sandwich showdown. it was very exciting, with sandwiches and all the enriched fillings - spicy of spices, barbecued beef, cispy chicken, thick tuna, lobster grilled cheese, mayo, salads, golden brown onion rings and whatnot. made me wan to make a good one myself. happily made a trip to supermarket with a purpose. bought bread, meat and sandwich sauce(with omega 3)healthy choice make a healthy living. wee~ reached home, and i made 2! let bro tasted the first one with egg ala burger ramly tapitakjadi.the 2nd one i made, i packed it in sandwich bag for school.hehe

bro: kak buat roti cam semalam lagi uh! *yeay. tande i pass!*

i'll try to make a better one tmr and share aight? you may wan make one too you know. and share with me the recipes! seronoknyerr kalau u all boleh kongsi-kongsi. so that i can make different ones to school sometimes (; i hope i make sense..its quite late now to organize my thoughts.

alhamdulilah. i love today and insyaAllah days to come. ok, my liver needs to rest.

2008-11-04T10:10:00.012+08:00

at McD ni *ape buat pagi2 kat mcD* tadi sbenanye ade tuition dgn Fakhrul yg bakal duduki periksa. memandangkan die skola ptg, pagi-pagi da mule tuition tatkala ade yg masih bergelumang dlm selimut di atas katil yg empuk.*hihi* semoga Fakhrul dpt menulis composition nye nanti dgn sebaiknya~ *ntah die ingat tak bwk buku composition yg ku pesan tadi*

me: fakhrul, jgn lupe eh bwk buku ni. bace tau model composition dlm bas tau. akak da lipat ni yg kene bace.
him: kalau lupe kak?? fakhrul tak bawak beg. pencil box je.
me: *putting his wallet on top of the book* kalau wallet lupe tak?
him: tak ah
me: sebab?
him: sebab nak mkn nanti recess
me: abe kenape buku le lupe? kan nanti nak exam?
him: heh *smile cheekily*
me: kalau wallet tak lupe sbab nak mkn. same dgn buku ni, sbb nanti nak exam. kalau tak mkn takpe. lagipun fakhrul sblm klua rumah kan da mkn nasi, nanti balik pun mkn lagi.tak mkn pun ok.tapi dok perikse skali je. balik da takle buat paper tu lagi. mane lagi penting?
him: tapi kak kalau fakhrul tak mkn, nanti fakhrul takle buat composition. takde idea kak.otak kosong. *adee je jawabnye eh. ketawe dlm hati*
me: tak peduli. bawak jugk buku ni dgn beg duit. ni akak da letak kat atas. jadi tak lupe :p

and 930, we ended. with him sending me off to the lift. cute eh? primary 3. so while waiting for library to open where i can do my assignments, i walked to mcD. very early, i must say. sitting here, observing others while drinking my water, leaving my ice lemon tea n apple pie. heh. bli mkn sbenanye passport to stay here longer (;

i just saw my ustazah! ustazh Khadijah. ustzh mengandung! hehe nak lari je kat ustzh. tapi barang2 ni camne pulak. rindu kuliah2 ustzh yg bersemngt. sifat keibuanmu sungguh terserlah (:

**

last night after my class, seha n me went for supper di Lapangan Terbang Changi Terminal 3!! memandangkan ku tidak pernah ke sane, ape lagii..mcm ruse masok kampong. tsk tsk. kesian seha kene layan kerenah ku yg sungguh err...jakon? heh. sayangnye, kamera ku tiada di sisi. ble tahan grand T3. but i thought it looked a bit like shopping centre. which is....not gd?

who did i meet there? Sis Liana~ aah, betool. heh. she was waiting for her flight which was at 1am. honeymooning @ switzerland. seronoknyer..kan kan? May they hav a safe journey and meaningful time together, insyaAllah.

post ini random semata. assignments! *-*

p/s: trime kasih nazihah krn izinkan access (;

2008-11-01T12:01:00.009+08:00

attn prawn lovers this is tiptop, no doubt. beware of cholestrols (;
melting + chewy choc cookies made by abng sedare. soo gd that we cant stop.

oh. that long road from MFA.

my reading pace is getting slower. devouring the words so slow like i'd never end the book. having a reading couch or swing, macam kat rumah kak ruqayyah, may help. hee or age is catching up. heh like real (; i wish time crawls.

i knew them since i grew at nenek's home. nenek tabu' n family were very nice to me. they were the ones who created my nickname and always pinched my cheeks so hard. their daughters would entertain me with sweets and toys. i only got to meet them again after so long.i only hear of them from nenek.got to know yayi naian was challenged with cancer. despite his health, wheelchairbound, he was determined to visit my grandfather.our family visited him recently during raye.although i barely talk to him, just by looking at him saddens me. and i was awoken by nenek's call for the news.

someday the people we truly love will leave us too.
a reminder to self especially that all will eventually return to Allah.

Allahyarham Naian Bin Ali. Al Fatihah.

2008-10-30T00:04:00.013+08:00

interesting petition going on. with regards to the increased bus fares. heh. seha is soo right. now that im no more using concession,(depressing huhu) i start to feel the pinch. especially if i forget to tap my card when alighting. if concession, it doesnt matter. for normal fares its not the same. they'll deduct more than the supposed fare. i wish my school offers concession. after all, we are stil students you know. no difference.

this morning i was unhappy with a service from a shop. i wanted to try to be a difficult customer but failed terribly cause i just cant bring myself to bicker with someone so unreasonable and persistent. pfft. *and so, it ends here*

**

alhamdulilah school was okay.havent explore the building yet.this term im taking 3 modules - immunology(IY), medical microbiology (MMBY) and developing professional skills(DPS2). i have to be prepared for assignments. after two lectures, they seem fine. especially Dr. M, a local lecturer who is detailed in her lectures, friendly with her britain ~~essence~~accent. i loike. my stomach always bunyi in class. and so i bought some biscuits at cheers for future classes - bekalan mase depan. i have yet to get myself adjusted to the school curriculum. and yes, i've made friends (:

**
my first trip to Ministry of Foreign Affairs with aunt for yah's cart endorsement. gamat cari tempat nye. but i like these ministry places cause they are most of the time quite convenient, easy and of course, very secured.

cheenikum

2008-10-23T15:33:00.009+08:00

the largest truth always is a slip of tongue,

to make light of the matter - Mr Greens

my day was spent in tp with seha. ate lunch(nasi goreng kampong) at itas. walked by the staircase up to comp lab at level 6. then to the library to look for books and used comp. just like any normal poly routine days. its not that bad actually. i enjoyed it. i so miss school that is near home. my schools all these years have been quite near home. pre-sch which is just behind my block. primary sch - walking distance. sec sch by bus. poly - both walk n bus. its time that i not rest on my laurels.

2008-10-20T10:18:00.017+08:00

15th October was Eid Gathering with TMSN at Masjid Sultan. where i meet friends from 7 instituitions - 4 polys and 3 universities. i got to meet friends whom i have yet to meet. get to hear from them. penting jugk network gini jadi kite tau jugk perkembangan di sekolah lain. its very interesting how these leaders meet and they sit down discussing abt their respective instituitions, how they, from different instituitions, can together generate solutions for each other. subhanaAllah.

of course we need constant reminders and one of which was the recitation from Surah Kahfi verses 10-14: [13] Kami ceritakan kepadamu (wahai Muhammad) perihal mereka dengan benar; sesungguhnya mereka itu orang-orang muda yang beriman kepada Tuhan mereka, dan kami tambahi mereka dengan hidayah petunjuk.
[14]Dan Kami kuatkan hati mereka (dengan kesabaran dan keberanian), semasa mereka bangun (menegaskan tauhid) lalu berkata: "Tuhan kami ialah Tuhan yang mencipta dan mentadbirkan langit dan bumi; kami tidak sekali-kali akan menyembah Tuhan yang lain dari padanya; jika kami menyembah yang lainnya bermakna kami memperkatakan dan mengakui sesuatu yang jauh dari kebenaran."
also in english.

the finale by Ustaz Jamaluddin, he said(lebih kurang) :
..mudah-mudahan Allah s.w.t menerima amal soleh kite. sebab Nabi saw selepas dia mengerjakan sesuatu amal yg baik, Nabi s.a.w akan berdo'a "Alhamdulilah allazii bini'matihii tatimmussoolihat", Alhamdulilah dgn nikmatNya telah tersempurna amal yg soleh. bile kite buat sesuatu kerje yg baik, berjaya, sempurna dan selesai, kite harap ini semue(gema ghufran) menjadi amal yg soleh, insyaAllah.

alhamdulilah. Gema Ghufran, 18 october menjadi salah satu dari events yg sgt bermakna buat diri ini. bile terkenangkan planning process, yg geli hati ade dan yg tension sgt pun ade. dari saat ia mule hingga ke akhir - dress code, ttg venue for the event, perbincangan yg seperti boleh buat debate. ketiga pasal mknan - ni pun tension. sampai pi arab st nak cari mknan yg sesuai dgn tema kali ni. tapi memandangkan bajet tidak mengizinkan, kite buat perubahan yg lebih memadai. yakni mknan masakan Ibunya brother Hamzah *thumbs up* sodap tu. mati2 nak mkn jugk sblm balik tau. tanak ketinggalan nak rase nasi, ayam masak merah dan satay nye (;

jadi organiser dan participant rasenye mungkin sedikit berbeza. at times, i really wish i was in the hall listening to both emcees' (Ustaz Ahmad & Ustaz Irwan) enlightening sharings ttg kelebihan sunnah Rasulullah s.a.w (siwak dan celak) dan lain2 yg ade kene mengene dgn tema arab kali ini spt kebiasaan orng2 arab. then again i was reminded of my responsibilities and the things i had to do with the time that we all had to keep up with. so i only heard bits and pieces. kalaulah hall tu ade video camera yg boleh ditayangkan buat kali kedua kan? walaubagaimanapun pengalaman dan kenangan bersama ikhwan dan akhowat yg lain throughout the event, sungguh bermakna.

if i may share some of what i have learnt. first, penyesuaian diri. kalau selalu organize event dgn teman2 di Nur Ikhwan(kangen dgn kamu semue ye). kali ini, berbeza. wajah2 baru! actually pernah jumpe di camp explore dan krc5. cume dgn peluang ini dptlah ku mengenali mereka dgn lebih baik lagi dlm satu committee~ kedua, sabar. amidst the meetings and plannings, u hav to quickly organise ur thoughts and absorb others' as well and deliver..we all sure need patience. "Dan bersabarlah sesungguhnya Allah bersama orang-orang yg sabar."(Surah Al-Anfal:46) ketiga the willingness to accept which is rather imprtnt to me. and the magic of smile (: bnyk lagi sebenarnye, mungkin di mase akan dtg. i recorded a video of ustaz nye finale too, the closing.

**
alhamdulilah, yesterday i met nadiah, nadhirah and seha(tp coursemates) whom i havent met for a long time. each with many updates. too many that when i had to leave them for awhile, i told them to put it on hold til i come back (: it reminds me of them whom i have yet to meet - raodah, sakinah, shahirah, nisha, zahirah, qaiyimah, fidyana, adawiyah, hanna dll. insyaAllah one day. thank you Allah for these friends.

bermulalah lembaran baru dlm hidup ku ;)

2008-10-18T01:08:00.008+08:00

every time if i stay up late at night and the phone rings, i will be very worried. who would call us so late at night unless it is truly urgent..kan? call rumah lagi. when u can wake everyone up. the last time i received this late night call, i was to receive the news. my uncle passed away. quickly woke ibu and abah up.

just, the same thing happened again. i was doing some tasks for tmr's event, when the phone rang. u feel so eager yet so reluctant to answer and all my immediate family members ran through my head so fast - sumth happen to nenek/yayi/along ke kat rumah? mariah not feeling well ke? or at inah's, aisha's, kak ummi's? the worry somehow subsided when the call was actually for bro. i thought, masih ade ke yg jalan raye mlm2 gini nak kat kul 1? but i let it go. then bro told me, his friend passed away due to cancer. do'akan our brother, dear friends, Mohd Raihan.

amidst all the busyness, Allah will remind those who forgets.

2008-10-16T22:10:00.005+08:00

countdown 1 more day to Gema Ghufran. i wonder how is everyone feeling.

a new phase. here i come. embrace it maryam. press on!

kekecewaan dan kegagalan adalah titik tolak kejayaan yang lebih bermakna.
kekalahan adalah iftitah kemenangan yang lebih akbar. - Salju Sakinah

2008-10-15T00:53:00.014+08:00

sekian lame tak hiasi blog ni. saye suka skin baru ini.

raye ni kan..blum selesai ziarah pakcik dan makcik. abng n me dok sabar menanti je ni. hee. dgn perikse adik yg tak sudah sudah. asal tanye die je kan -

me:dik tmr paper ape?
him: papeerrr aeroplane! *nak kene jotos pun ade*

tadi..
me: dik ujian dabis kan?
him: hari2 ade ujian kak. takkan abis punyer..

betol jugak eh. bijak bistro. mmng hari2 kite diuji. tak kire lah kat mane2. dok tunggu bas yg tak kunjung tibe..ujian. dok bas senail je geraknye..tu pun ujian. jadi bersabarlah wahai hati (:

tadi ade Eid Gathering bersama Masjid Darul Ghufran & Metta Rehab. before the event commence,i was just standing near a corner looking at all the neneks n atoks. their eyes especially, i wonder, how do they feel? if u tak pernah try..cube la amati mate mereke. i just feel that they need more. just more than the essential needs.

2008-10-09T11:04:00.021+08:00

alhamdulilah. udah selesai membaca bukunya. ni nak bagi review tapi belum tersusun kata2. da lama tak bace novel yg menjiwai nur Islam.Kali ini mungkin pendekatan penulis berbeza. berunsur dakwah. Imtisal, Layyinul Harir, Hana, Linda, Aisya Bazella, Muslimah. setiap mereka mempunyai cerita mereka sendiri. seronoknye kalau dpt dok bersama mereka. yg diketengahkan dlm buku ni spt ikhlas, bersangka baik, istiqamah, ukhwwah dan lain-lain sgt2 dekat dgn kite sbg seorng anak, kakak dan pelajar. sbenanye banyak lagi ilmu2 yg diselitkan dlm buku ni.

then i start reading other readers' reviews - astronomy, kitaabun, kahfi. jika ade yg sudi kongsi buku2 yg boleh kite bace, jgn malu2 k? (: would like to share this. kangen usrah & MnM sisters.

2008-10-06T02:19:00.005+08:00

my first guests for raye - triplets! they started off very shy but after warming up..ewah ewah, bukan main lagi posing dpan camera. except for the second brother who was having fever but selera makan tetap ade (; oh ya..i had a hard time recognising them. tesasul-sasul name. panggil abng,adik nyahut. panggil adik, abng pusing. heh. then cik taught me how to differentiate them. one got lesung pipit, ade lekuk kat dagu and lagi satu takingat. beautiful.

**

am reading this book(aah tak abis2 lagi bace buku ni), Tautan Hati. semngat da'wah tu spt ditiup setiap kali membacanye. Asiah Yusra, Elya Khadeeja dan teman-teman ibarat permata Islam yg sgt berharga.

2008-10-04T12:12:00.012+08:00

second day of raye - after our guests, abah's friend's family (will share this later.comeel) left, i read Pola Makan Rasulullah by Prof. Dr. Abdul Basith Muhammad as-Sayyid, which i bought quite some time ago at the islamic bookfair kat masjid kassim. it says, whatever we eat, janganlah terlalu berlebihan dan tidak juga terlalu kikir.

"Makan dan minumlah, tetapi jangan berlebihan. Sesungguhnya Allah tidak menyukai orang yg berlebihan" (Surah al-Araf: 31)

jgn minom air oren bnyk sgt k. nanti mulut klua taring (;

2008-10-02T11:04:00.026+08:00

30 Ramadhan 1429H

salah satu daripada amalan-amalan sunnah (oleh Mohd Yaakub bin Mohd Yunus) pada hari raya eidilfitri adalah, bergembira. dan suasana gembira tu sudah tentu berbeza di setiap rumah, tempat dan keadaan.

alhamdulilah. gembira nye diri ini bukan semata kerana dpt jumpe sanak saudara, mkn ketupat, baju baru, duit raye(aah, masih dpt. jgn jeles :p) dan sebagainya tapi terutama sekali hati yg lebih damai selesai bermaafan. rasenye gembira tu sangat berbeza, yg bukan direka-reka (: jadi memang lah patut kite selalu bermaafan, takkan nak tunggu raye je kot. juga tahun ini, nampaknye do'a bertambah. trime kasih yayi, nenek, ibu, ibu sal dan cik jamal yg tak jemu-jemu mendo'akan.

yg istimewa dan yg memeriahkan lagi suasana raye di rumah nenek yayi kali ni, ialah bile kite video conference dgn mariah kat jordon dari bilik yayi. thank you kak ayun and family for lending us the laptop, internet connection dan semue kemudahan. tapi di sane rupenye dah raye kedua. sukenye semue. especially nenek ngan yayi. terserlah sekali senyuman mereka walaupun sblm tu, kami semue bersedihan. tentu sekali, semue pakcik makcik yg lain kongsi gembira bersama. seme rebut2 nak bual (: sempat nak menyanyi, bergurau dan sebagainya. terharu nye saat tu. we truly miss u. semoga kegembiraan keluarga ini akan bertambah saat u pulang nanti. bukan tu sahaje, mungkin dgn ini, ia lebih mengeratkan lagi pertalian kite semue. bidznillah. especially through Skype! hee

akhir sekali, Eid Mubarak~ kpd yg sedang membace, sama ada yg mengenali atau sebaliknya. minal 'aidin wal faaizin. kullu 'am wa antum bil khair.

p/s: selain bergembire, ade jugk amalan2 sunnah yg lain ;)

jom fastabiqul khoirat! (berlumba-lumba dlm kebaikan!)

2008-09-14T23:34:00.021+08:00

assalamu'alaikum yah!

tadi tak sempat pulak nak chat. kak ummi called i to go online. unfortunately i couldnt cause i wasnt at home. heart cousins~ terharu sgt. bergenang air mate mengenangkan mereka. teringat 8Sept, kan kak ummi aishah? (:

ur sister ni tgh merasmikan cokolat2 u yg die bawak balik smlm - sambil nyanyi lagu happy birthday -_- winnie the pooh you, gedek k. and has become inah's bestfren at home. pi mane-mane pelok die.(kan inah kan?) kesian eh. get ur parents to come home soon, before it's too late. hehe ;)

do keep us updated. kalau mase mengizinkan, kongsi lah gamba2 mu di sane kat zahra~ some are here. shall wait for u and update more. i have both good and lesser good news.

(:(

Ramadhan Mubarak~

"Man cannot Discover New Oceans unLess He has the Courage to Lose Sight of d Shore." Andre Gide (French write and Nobel prize winner)

2008-09-05T11:48:00.001+08:00

Being thankful

Qisas.com

It is said that once Hasan al-Basri had a very sharp headache, so he tied a bandana over his head. Rabia Basri saw him and inquired the cause for the bandana, to which Hasan al-Basri told her of the headache.

Rabia Basri asked him if this headache is something he gets often. Hasan al-Basri replied that Allah has blessed him with good health and it is after many years that he had a headache this severe.

“Is it not strange that Allah gave you good health for years, and then when He afflicts you with some pain, you wear a banner on your head to advertise your pain?”

Hasan al-Basri says that after that day he never ever complained of any harship he faced.

I don’t know the authenticity, but I often marvel at the lesson. How thankful are we in the times of ease and how we complain in the times of difficulty? May Allah save us from hypocrisy.

2008-09-02T00:55:00.004+08:00

kepada semua,
Selamat Menjalani Ibadah Puasa~
Ramadhan Kareem.

1 Ramadhan 1429H
p/s: lets du'a for each other ye.

2008-08-22T01:39:00.004+08:00

reading Tautan Hati

written by Fatimah Syarha Mohd Noordin.

she also wrote Seindah Mawar Berduri

if ur looking for islamically-inclined books, these two are good reads. berunsur da'wah. highly recommended. baiknya ade penulis-penulis yg mampu meninggalkan kesan yg baik terhadap pembaca.. kan dik kan?

with that, keep on reading!

2008-08-19T15:50:00.001+08:00

:) cant wait to taste seha's pari dish for us. next week k? dik, trime kasih bahana layankan karenah kite-kite that night. ambeng was ohsoyummy~

bought two books at Badan(kedai buku kat Angsana) yest. will share them soon, biidznillah.

2008-08-18T16:50:00.000+08:00

If not Earth, where?
If not now, when?
If not us, who?

-Big B

2008-08-14T15:15:00.005+08:00

Anda ingin lebih cantik dan menarik?

# Jadikanlah Ghadhdul Bashar (menundukkan pandangan) sebagai "hiasan mata" anda, nescaya akan semakin bening dan jernih.

# Oleskan "lipstik kejujuran" pada bibir anda, nescaya akan semakin manis.

# Gunakanlah "pemerah pipi" anda dengan kosmetik yang terbuat dari rasa malu yang dibuat dari salon Iman.

# Pakailah "sabun Istighfar" yang menghilangkan semua dosa dan kesalahan yang anda lakukan.

# Rawatlah rambut anda dengan "Selendang Islami" yang akan menghilangkan kelemumur pandangan lelaki yang merbahayakan.

# Hiasilah kedua tangan anda dengan gelang Tawadhu' dan jari-jari anda dengan cincin Ukhuwwah.

# Sebaik-baiknya kalung anda adalah kalung "kesucian".

# Bedaklah wajah anda dengan "air Wudhu" nescaya akan bercahaya di akhirat.

*petikan dari e-mel yg dikirimkan oleh seorg sahabat

source: iluvislam

2008-08-11T00:02:00.004+08:00

my prayers have been answered

"But you may dislike something which is good for you, and you may like something which is bad for you. Allah (SWT) knows while you do not know." {Surah Al Baqarah}

I asked for strength and Allah gave me difficulties to make me strong.
I asked for wisdom and Allah gave me problems to solve.
I asked for prosperity and Allah gave me brawn and brain to work.
I asked for courage and Allah gave me dangers to overcome.
I asked for patience Allah placed me in situations where I was forced to wait.
I asked for love and Allah gave me troubled people to help.
I asked for favors and Allah gave me opportunities.
I received nothing I wanted.
I received everything I needed.

source: islamic tube

2008-08-08T11:34:00.005+08:00

this is home. truly.

since national day is tmr, naturally, schools would call for celebration today. living just beside a primary school abt level with the hall meaning that u'll be tuned to national songs earrly in the morning. and the students singing along at the top of their lungs like some competition. comel comel seram. one song after another. kite yg dgr yg haus. red white here and there (:

hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri.

2008-08-05T16:24:00.001+08:00

Ramadhan Rocks 2008

2008-08-03T10:52:00.012+08:00

sobahul khair~

sunday is a good day. even if its not good i love my sundays.
allow me to share one of the many significant memories in mera life (:

after a long day...i went to msjd to solat. met dear marliyana n auntie.
its was alrdy 750 and my class will start very soon 8pm at kembangan. and yours truly is stil at Tampines. after solat, i walked down the staircase to find my shoe missing! *nehii* my heart beats like drum. da terfikir; camne ni? ape nak bilang ustaz eh? kot nak ckp "ustaz minta maaf saye tak dpt hadir class harini sbab kasut saye hilang ustaz" -_- so i went up again; hoping that marl is stil arnd.

m: cik cik, nampak tak kwn maryam tadi?
cik: eh tak prasan pulak cik. nak gi mane ni?
m: ade class cik kul 8. tapi kasut yam hilang cik
cik: da cari betol2? agaknye yam naik dari tangga blkng tak? tengok kat blkng
m: *think hard,tngk2 sekeliling*hmm.yam rase yam naik dari tangga depan.. *tapii dlm hati kan, da risau. betol ke kite naik dari tangga lain. kenape pulak hati tak yakin eh*
cik: meh kite tgk bawah

m: takde cik :( *im going to miss my first class n i cant even go home now*
cik: pelan2 cari..

yours truly pun jenguk2 tige kali kat luar khemah2 tu hoping that i'd see any friends who could help. nak balik pun takle. handphone pulak dying. tu lah, kenape tak charge smlm?

cik: betol takde yam? *mase tgh tgk2 kat luar. she was behind me*
m: *toleh* takde cik.

skaliiii kan....i looked down - MY shoes!! just one foot away. i wore white shoes!! and all the panic was because i thought i wore my black shoes -_- tsk.

ya Allah.

today familyy coming together. its about time.

2008-08-02T00:20:00.016+08:00

Harry Potter is coming soon (bagi yg tak minat, sorriee)

so HP readers..behold` (mcm da tengok kaper)

Deathly Hollows will have two parts, 2010 n 2011. lamer eh. but nvm.
i do not mind. that'll just drag the HP series longer. good.

every time i meet inah n yah, mesti ade bende kelakar yg akan happen. or funny sharings. and one of which; my encounter - another ~~urgh~~experience with a bus; like getting stucked in the middle of the door before i fully alight the bus. yaar..the driver actually closed the door y'know. can u imagine? sakit eh. tsk. kesiaan die. agaknye i didnt fit in the rear mirror that the driver always looked at before pressing the close the door button. lagii kan, i happen to sleep in the bus. the knock really woke me up. heh. ok thats all~

and i think my nenek joy is very funny ;)

last day of rejab today`

2008-07-28T12:15:00.006+08:00

alfussalam.

(: watching Titian Minda 2008 - Sikap Berani Remaja Lebih Mendatangkan Kebaikan.
Apakah yg menyebabkan kurangnya pemimpin berkualiti pada masa kini? *thinking cap*

i learnt a new word - hoard (mungkin ade da tau. tapi kite baru tau. jadi nak la kongsi kan)
through Oprah Show last friday(mase stress2 finishin my reports tu kan,tgk jugaak maryam eh. friday tu, kelam kabut kejarkan mase sblm kul 6 ptg to submit the reports. phew, baik jugk rumah tak jauh sgt dari skola). anw this episode really moved me. this morning the epsiode continues - the road to recovery. especially the final moments where they revealed the new home.

"If something has a value to it, then treat it in that way.." Peter Walsh

2008-07-22T00:51:00.007+08:00

When you meet a wasteful immoderate person,
you hear complaints,
no matter how rich he is, he still complains.
But when you meet even the poorest, but contented person,
you hear only thanks.

i find this cool. seha shared with me some time ago :)

exam timetable is out! abt one more month~

2008-07-17T13:30:00.029+08:00

10 random things about me

that i dun mind sharing..

The Rules

Post 10 random things about yourself
Choose 5 people to tag and a reason you chose each person
Leave them each a comment directing them to your blog so they know they are it
You can’t tag the person who tagged you (you’ll have to make new friends)
As a courtesy to the person who tagged you, please let them know when you have posted so they can have the sheer delight and extra work load of reading your answers)

i was tagged by dear sis mardhiah (: jeng jeng jeng~

1. i may take quite long to decide on something if it comes to buying sumth ,sometimes i ended up not buying anything. and my partner will end up buying alot. i always consider, whether it is really my need or just something i want.sumtimes if it dragged too long, by the time i wan to buy..its gone. heh.

2. i love home cooked food lagi-lagi ayam lemak cili padi kampung (without daun limau punye) yammie! anyone who cooks it, i loike. my nenek punye power best.kalau raye, i'd request her to cook. so style baru, ketupat with ayam lemak cili padi ;) lain pun suke jugk rendang, kicap anything and aunts' signature dishes.

3. i played netball since my primary sch then secondary sch. lepas tuu...pencen kot. heh. missed it. i've stopped since poly. sad eh. i wan to start, but i need another 6 more players.

4. badminton is my family game. when i was a kid, i used to follow my father when he played with his friends. slowly he impart the skills to brothers n i. game die tak lece, we can even play at the carpark behind my home.and takde jatuh2 ni seme.unless collision.

5. i enjoy taking photos. n dun mind even if im not in it. kalau ngan my cousins kan, one of them will comment; ko nii tak abis2 eh :p kalau ade rezeki, teringin jugk nak bli a camera with a better quality picture and teringin nak blaja edit2 gamba. but i dun think its important now.

6. when i was in pri sch, i hav a malay teacher. her name is Cikgu Mariam. she taught me for a good 4 years since pri 1.she is very nice.

7. i used to not really enjoy doing mathematics. then i started to like it. fav subject when i was sec 4. my classmates, teachers, tutors made me enjoy doin it. even though im not really majoring in it now.

8. when i was small, i suke pujuk yayi pi 7Eleven. kene marah ngan nenek pun nak gi jugk. hehe taktau la bli ape. sbab dulu kan asik kedai mama, jadi bile dpt pi 7Eleven, kire da shopping besar ah gitu. dulu tak pandai gi TM ni seme. padehal kat kedai mama bwh ade, lagi best2 - ade jojo, toya, remmbr? stakat aircon je and the "dengdong" when u enter n leave. jadi kalau my cousins nak gi 7Eleven kan, they'd say; ah, suro yam pujuk yayi. die pandai :p and after much persuasion, yayi's grandchildren would stroll happily holding hands to 7Eleven *yeay yeay*

9. reading - once im into a really good book i'll take note. and after a loong time, i'll look for it and read it again. if it's in malay, i'd pass on to my mum. but sometimes, bole terdrag sampai over the due date. oops.

10. i treasure ties. be it with family or friends (:

can i tag all those on my links? except for Sis Mardhiah, Nur Ikhwan & Zahrataani ;) ->
cause they are my friends! and i duno who to choose. perhaps those who are reading too. the more the happier, no obligations. sharing is caring ;) hee~ok can. go!

teringat pulak mase klass last week, ustaz tanye kami semue. awak kenal tak diri awak? i answered; belum cukup kenal kot. hmm. well, as the days come, i'll get to know more about myself. if u do, mayb u can share (:

2008-07-16T01:59:00.021+08:00

Rasenye nak berkongsi ttg seseorng yg istimewa, namenye Nur Ikhwan. my loyal accompany throughout my days in TP (: it all started when i attended a camp at RELC. speaking of which, i couldnt find many pictures during the camp nor presentation day; tried at flickr, photobucket, multiply n googled. its ok. anyway it was memorable. i stil remmber we proposed a Family Carnival/Idol. the days n nights to prepare for the presentation... smngt betul. then, slowly it began. new friends, meetings n what not. i havent really know NI well, i just sat in. because im comfortable; meeting muslim friends who, in my opinion, hav the gd intentions, willing to giv and contribute. along the journey, met friends from other schools/ mosques/ organisations as well. the insights, wisdom, courage and passion that they hav shown have taught and inspired me. including you, yes you reading. u did. knowing or unknowingly (: alhamdulilah. thank you Allah. thank you. anw this special friend will always hav a place in my qalb. a short video, memories of committee 07/08 (: and to comm 08/09, ahlan wasahlan!

and so, my journey continues (:
it says tmr is my quiz. huhu

2008-07-12T00:19:00.008+08:00

something to share. lately, they are many new SBS buses that could cater to those are wheelchair bound, even 293 n 291~ kemudahan yg cukup baik. the bus is more spacious and new. i boarded the new 34 just now. there were no seats, cause there arnt many. so i just lean at the cushion. upon reaching my place, biase la kan, kene press bell. tak tau kenape, itchy hand, konon nak cube picit bell biru yg kat sbelah je. ingatkan bunyi bell biase, cume warne je biru. i realli thought bunyi de same. skalii bunyi - teeet teeet tit teeet tit- ntah la ape(laame pulak tu)instead of the normal ding dong! weird nye :o i think the blue bell is for calling the driver for help kot. agaknye driver terpikir eh, passenger takde yg dok wheelchair, siape pulak tgn gatal pi picit. waduh~ five cent nye pipi ni cause i was the only one standing and ~~even better~~ alighting. those sitting couldnt hav reached the blue bell kan. to add on to the thickness of my skin, i had to press the bell again, this time the normal one. apparently the blue one that i pressed doesnt light the BUS STOPPING, so driver didnt open the back door for me to alight. tsk.

moral is; dun press the blue bell in the new buses. please dun even attempt to try.

2008-07-12T00:07:00.002+08:00

I Am Not Cryin Because …
Qisas.com

A man reached 70 years of age and he faced a disease; he could not urinate. The doctors informed him that he was in need of an operation to cure this disease. He agreed to have the operation done as the problem was giving him much pain for days. When the operation was completed, his doctor gave him the bill which covered all the costs. The old man looked at the bill and started to cry. Upon seeing this the doctor told him that if the cost was too high then they could make some other arrangements. The old man said “I am not crying because of the money but I am crying because Allah let me urinate for 70 years and He never sent me a bill."

…and if you try to count the blessings of Allah, never will you be able to count them… Surah Ibrahim Allah states that the servants are never able to count His blessings, let alone thank Him duly for them. In Sahih Al-Bukhari it is recorded that the Messenger of Allah( Peace and blessings be upon him) used to supplicate;
«اللَّهُمَّ لَكَ الْحَمْدُ غَيْرَ مَكْفِيَ وَلَا مُوَدَّعٍ وَلَا مُسْتَغْنًى عَنْهُ رَبَّنَا»
O Allah ! All praise is due to You, without being able to sufficiently thank You, nor ever wish to be cutoff from You, nor ever feeling rich from relying on You; our Lord!

It was reported that Prophet Dawud peace be upon him, used to say in his supplication, “O Lord! How can I ever duly thank You, when my thanking You is also a favor from You to me’’
Allah the Exalted answered him, “Now, you have thanked Me sufficiently, O Dawud,’’ meaning, `when you admitted that you will never be able to duly thank Me.’
Tafsir Ibn Kathir

2008-07-11T00:17:00.009+08:00

finally. finished the five people you meet in heaven.
just too bad i lost the book before i could even finish reading it. nasib baik tp library ade. truly nice.

side track: just found the movies adapted from Mitch Albom Books!
1) the five people you meet in heaven
2) tuesdays with morrie
3) for one more day

sungguh bagus penemuan ini. hee. suke banget. i've only watched the second one quite some time ago. insipiring n touching. didnt know that there are others. will watched the rest when time permits.

Strangers, are just family you have yet to come to know - MA

2008-07-06T12:57:00.023+08:00

my sec 4 classmates. miss my other friends too though they cannot make it. such great company. shikin is leaving soon enough. azima is applying for sim while fatin will be in nus in a mnth time. yours truly? insyaAllah will be somewhere too. how much i envy their nvr ending spirit to study. always enjoy being with my circle of friends, all. wanna meet mr teo, mr said, mdm filza and other teachers too. oh, there's an alumni gathering - $45/each. so, calling out to pasirians! check out sch website for details. dear friends, lets not wait for another 4 years to gather and catch-up aight? (:

late dinner at Popeye with siblings. would recommend them UP! your service :) first time to Popeye, like the biscuits n mashed potato *thumbs up* very nice. one time, we raised our fist in the air together; like soldiers, whispering loudly "go Azhar!" for mariah. kite seme support and pray for u. mcm farewell dinner la pulak. out at night without parents, but under good supervision. except for the part where we were at the airplane scenary area, having fun. err..enjoyed that ;) sungguh seronok, soo free and happy. zul can be a part-time comedian cum actor cum singer. the long queue at swensens seems short. heart u all. betol betol, bile tak dirancang ni'mat die berbeza.

today: cousins punyer turn. better get ready now. we cannot be late or someone will slaughter us. after these, my pocket will shed tears.

it was a pleasant meet-up. the one who got threatened, was the first one to arrive while the one who threatened, last. hee~ the nasi ayam/ikan penyet is soo sedap! the sambal belacan quite pedas but kick jugk. it was soo funny seeing each other eating; panting, eyes got watery, blowing noses, faces turned red, keep drinking water. it was soo quiet. no one talked. that shows how pedas it was. padehal kan, we looked around jugk, no one was as bad as us k.

k.ummi: lain kali, korng nak mkn sini lagi? in the midst of the pedasness.
us: naakk! *hihi* -back to eating-

tu lah, eksen tambah sambal ;) but we finished it! the kicap helped kot. i saw that there's a new branch opening at tamp mall, level 4. we shall go again.

so, my weekend is gone. back to school work. buck up!

2008-07-04T11:28:00.015+08:00

salam'alaik.

lewat ni, diri ini menerime beberapa teguran nasihat dll yg sgt dihargai. alhamdulilah. thank you. one of the many, yg i dont mind sharing is maryam, u shd stop ur bad habit eh. mkn mlm2 nii. err that really caught me off guard, while i was eating lagi. heeh. for eating quite late at night, at~~many~~ times. and having brothers yg sekaki, not helping; one who doesnt mind sharing and the other who 'calls' me to eat. heh. staying up quite late its normal that i'd visit the esbok for a break. mayb i should stick to fruits eh. what happens to the one who enjoys netball, badminton? she who really enjoy sports. hmm. i still do(: siape nak main badminton ngan saye? i have rackets. stiill, i like food. lagi2 yg ade kat rumah ni. sudah memadai^ :) sooo, moral is jage diri jage kesihatan. kerana dgn memperolehinya, kite boleh beribadah dgn sebaik-baiknye. ye tak?

secondary school friends gathering tmr. after 4 years. we made time. i dun even remember meeting them after i received my olevel certs :( lame eh. loads of flashback tmr.

meeting aishah, seha, kak ummi, mariah n marinah this sunday. after soo long, except mariah n marinah whom i meet evry week, finally some gathering is pleasant eh. cant wait! i showed aishah video stong. going to share our camp experiences jugk. i prayed that we cousins could participate in any one event organised; together.

weekends for catching up.

p/s: its been 2 weeks or so since krc, only this aftrnn i realised the pain i got on my feet, when we were doing those activites, will leave a scar. blum lagi. nak dekat. huhu. lambat eh prasan?

2008-07-01T10:14:00.025+08:00

Bon Voyage!

Shikin(in light brown) is my secondary school classmate.raihanah who is my poly classmate is shikin's pri sch mate. faham? small world eh. anw shikin is leaving for australia, melbourne to further her studies. 17th July kan kin? i truly miss my sec sch friends. went for her do'a selamat cum gathering at her home with ibu. we received a very uniq berkat! cupcakes wrapped in a box. stylo milo brought to you by NCakes, hehe sempat eh maryam promote.sedap youu ;) then to my next destination.

zawajun sa'eed!

Norzahari & Syarfa

Baarakallahu fiikumaa wa 'alaikumaa wa jama'a bainakumaa fii khair

Semoga Allah memberkatimu dan keatasmu dan mengumpulkan kalian berdua dalam kebaikan

ameen. alhamdulilah (: her wedding must hav been the earliest that i've attended from my circle of friends. hehe. i've only get to spent time with kak syarfa when we(me n yah's marsah friends- kak fida, kak linda, kak huda, aisyah n shidah) had our KL holiday just 2 months ago~ how fast time flies. baruu je pi sunway lagoon eh. such memorable times. im glad our path crossed. with that, take care semue.

2008-06-23T10:44:00.037+08:00

Camp Xplore 11-12 June @ Msjd Darul Ghufran

oh..im missing the adik-adiks. gelagat mereka sungguh comel. one of the many memorable moments, game yg trying to protect the candle tu kan. sungguh tak disangka yg gue akan basah. i thought i would be spared. isk isk. sibuk light kan candle group sendiri ale2 je kuyuup~ kesian adik-adik kat my group. dgn sungguh-sungguh nak tamatkan race tapi mancis dah bis. i can imagine how disappointed they were. walaubagaimanapun semngat tu ketara sgt dlm semue kumpulan. syabas! we love you all. and now i understnd the level of activeness our young brothers are. no wonder dulu my brothers slalu jugk kene hukum (: more pics @ liyana's

Kem Remaja Cemerlang 13-17 June 08 @ Pulau Redang

my first meal with flinestone fire.

my first snorkelling experience.

our Pendidik (termasuk seorng ustazah,not in pic) + Msjd Kristal

Orang Pulau @ Treasure Hunt

Hang Tuah @ Pasir Panjang + Bendahara Tepok @ Stage

Leftenan Adnan @ Lunch + Hang Nadim @ Dinner Hall

tak terungkap keindahan lautan termasuk kehidupan di dalamnya di Pulau Redang dan pulau kejiranannya dgn kata-kata. subhanaAllah. setiap aktiviti yg dirancang ade kebaikan, pengajaran. tak semata-mata utk rekreasi sahaja. dan kite diberi peluang utk menikmati kehidupan yg cukup sederhana ;) trime kasih kpd cikgu-cikgu, ustaz-ustaz dan ustazah yg terlibat. thank you all krc participants for being such a pleasant company. its not a holiday after all. and i dont sleep at any resort. hee. it doesnt matter cause the journey...is something even money cant buy. so much to share. perhaps i'll wait for some more pics/videos kot. ready pics @ zahrataani & ustazah Sakinah's

DTalk 20-22 June 2008 @ Mjd An-Nahdhah

sempat tau seme tgk inter-madrasah sports' day + i love the breakfast sgt

after the reflection, i went home for the night. trime kasih ye teman2 krn memahami dan mmberi kelonggaran utkku pulang. nek n yayi slpover at home since last weekend and i've been away. yg dirancang dgn nenek, pulang pade mlm pertama. tapi mmng tak diizinkan sbab masih ade yg perlu diselesaikan. hence i decided to go home on the second night. mase sampai je, they're watching lord of the rings, i hvnt really understnd lotr.

dik: ingatkan da tanak balik lagi. lain kali takyah baliik. eh kak~hahaha :p (pastu tak malu amik chocolate orng)

we've said what we wanted to that nite. or maybe just me. to nur ikhwan, kalau nak diukur tak cukup measuring tape kalau nak measure how much u all meant to me. sayang menyayangilah ye. cause it will last longer, even after one is no more in NI (: may Allah continue to impart us the strength.

of course, i came back the next day to witness the skits. interesting they were. Secara keseluruhan, kami semue berpuas hati kan? dgn DTalk kali ini. syabas kepade semuee teman-teman seperjuangan yg menjayakan DTalk! and thank you to all the Alumnis from Nur Ikhwan and Nypmsn who remembered, yg mendo'akan kami, who have the intention to come n who came~ barakallahu feekum.

KRC follow up yesterday was just nice. for the lack of better words, best. alhamdulilah. food pun yummylicious (: i'll keep in mind pesanan-pesanan ustaz-ustaz. i need reminders, remind me if i forgot any of them that was mentioned yesterday or in any of the camps. and if there's another time, we shall meet again. oh ya, thank u for the letters. gifts. smiles. the "PTS" (please, sorry, thank you) and everything that i may hav missed. rasenye dah rindu dgn semngat gotong royong kat pusat kurikulum. and no more kain batiks n pelekats to wear. hee.

my 2 weeks holiday. rase macam sebulan. insyaAllah kelak kalau ade yg teringat ke, akan saye kongsi lagi ye. its not all about fun. but knowledge, experience, friends etc. truly, these 3 camps carved a memorable place in my heart.

hav to go to school now. back to reality (:

2008-06-08T12:04:00.009+08:00

alhamdulilah. term tests udah selesai buk. skrng bisa lakukan appa saja. cuti kok. bisa ke camp, ke camp daan ke camp :)

camp explore, which i already have a rough idea what it is going to be like after the briefing yesterday. we were reminded to overestimate kids. cause they are still very active *gulp* its an amanah. am i prepared for it?

how about Kem Remaja Cemerlang? ya Allah. ni lagi tak tau. main join je and asked mariah along. it was so random. i thought she wouldnt be keen. instead, her answer was immediate yes. i wasnt even sure i can go. next moment, we are registered. annd why do i think abah has the impression that im going for a holiday? oh noo abah. this morning while i was reading the newsppr, abah handed me a brochure with all the beautiful places of interests, useful contacts, list of accomodations, tourism offices, food galore etc. dalam hati, sampai ke tak eh tempat2 ni. i've told abah its a remaja camp. then again..am i? i think my brothers are more appropriate but because they hav sch commitments. am i up for it? after last night's reviews. whatever that we hav to do/face on that island kelak. this is adventure~

DTalk - the awaiting Nur Ikhwan/NYPMSN camp. look forward to it :) so dearest friends, stay strong and remain enthusiastic ya!

i shall finish my reports n dtalk admin before i could share more.

till then, enjoy the holidays eh ;)

2008-06-04T14:03:00.003+08:00

kaise tumhe batau mera dil..
tum kya jaano?

kisne kiya hain aake mujhpe chupkese ehsaan ?

2008-06-02T01:23:00.004+08:00

bittaufiiq wannajaah semue (:
yg tgh dok periksa minggu ni. or report due soon.

meanwhile, yg free kan. something to share, just got to know abt DYN.
Learn Sunnah, Live Sunnah. pendekatan dari segi sosial, kesihatan dll.

2008-05-27T09:36:00.001+08:00

I asked for Strength...

And Allah gave me Difficulties to make me strong.

I asked for Wisdom...

And Allah gave me Problems to solve.

I asked for Prosperity...

And Allah gave me Brain and Brawn to work.

I asked for Courage...

And Allah gave me Danger to overcome.

I asked for Love...

And Allah gave me Troubled people to help.

I asked for Favours...

And Allah gave me Opportunities.

I received nothing I wanted...

I received everything I needed~

"So blessed be Allah, the best of creators!"Surah The Believer (23) verse 14

2008-05-24T01:16:00.004+08:00

"Kita Bak Sebuah Bangunan yang Saling Menguatkan"

Masjid Al-Istiqamah, selepas isya'
Sabtu 24 Mei

Sinopsis:

Hadis Rasulullah s.a.w:
Almu'min lil mu'min Kalbunyan yashuddu ba'dhahum ba'adha.

"Kita dengan saudara Islam kita yang lain saling memerlukan antara satu sama lain. Sesorang itu tidak mampu hidup bersendiri tanpa adanya saudara yang lain untuk membantu dan menasihati. Maka, terimalah saudara kita kerana kelebihan dan kekurangannya. Kerana kita adalah SATU."

Berita Harian, 23Mei

2008-05-16T02:37:00.010+08:00

setelah sekian lame diperkenalkan dgn tajuk cerite ni oleh Liyana..baru lewat2 ni tergerak hati utk membacanya. huhu~

Seindah Mawar Berduri by Fatimah Syarha Mohd Noordin
just finished reading it. very islamic novel. cukup padat dan ringkas. sarat dgn kebaikan.
Khazinatul Asrar..khazanah kerahsiaan. name seindah akhlakmu.

As-Syahid Al-Iman Hassan Al Banna
"..kewajipan yang perlu kamu lakukan lebih banyak daripada masa yang kamu ada."

i wonder if this book is sold in stores. bace online ni ade payah sikit. kwang kwang.
BPT (Bioprocess Technology), this subject im taking - mase tutorial tadi, waduh bnyk nyer calculations. rase mcm cepat gitu mase berlalu kalau BPT tutorial. fening lalat dibuatnye. ni menunjukkan kene lah pull up my stokins kan?

*inhale exhale* (:

2008-05-05T11:17:00.007+08:00

The Human Spirit

may, the second - seha n malik - went dinner with family.
bro, 18 act like 8. but nemind.

then at grand's, as promised, once every fortnight. this time, seha lambat. waiting for her to arrive seem so long, and every1 was sleepy & hungry. nak surprise die konon. heh. this time, aishah didnt sleep, u better shaa next time. well, good night.

Human Spirit @ 9pm, Monday nights -arts central- is eye-opening.
i disagree with some theories the scientists were trying to conclude from Hussein's family.

their effort, i am inspired.

2008-05-04T10:51:00.003+08:00

Heal

it comes when least expected,
life goes on .. with or without it.

Ya Allah, guide me through..

2008-05-03T10:17:00.006+08:00

Hero

Theres a hero
If you look inside your heart
You dont have to be afraid
Of what you are
Theres an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

Chorus
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And youll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Its a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

Chorus

Oh oooh
Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But dont let anyone
Tear them away, hey yeah
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
Youll find the way

Chorus

That a hero lies in you..
That a hero lies in
You
**

last night, had good sharing sessions. bookmark the date. its been awhile. my involvement in sch was the bulk of our sharing. my brothers?? i knoww. tak caye kan dik? nemind. apparently malik bro shared an inspirational song. heh. siap dgn tangan2 seme bile nyanyi~ i realised that anwar bro has particular interest in climate change,looking for climate change videos in youtube.

2008-04-30T10:00:00.003+08:00

Except Muslims?

The Fatwa Committee of the Islamic Religious Council of Singapore has taken the position that it is permissible for the Muslim community to be included in the Human Organ Transplant Act (HOTA), from the religious perspective.

3 August 2007 / 19 Rejab 1427
Actualizing the Value of Ihsan

get the facts right before informing others, especially students in lecture theatre.

2008-04-28T09:01:00.000+08:00

Today before you think of saying an unkind word
Think of someone who cant speak
Before you complain about the taste of your food
Think of someone who has nothing to eat

Before you complain of not having enough
Think of someone who's begging on the street
Before you complaint of being ugly
Think of someone who's actually in the worst of states of life

Before you complain about your husband or wife
Think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion
Today before you complain about life
Think of someone who has left this world

Before you complain about your children
Think of someone who desires children but they're barren
Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean or sweep
Think of the people who are living in the streets

Before whining about the distance you drive
Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet
And when you are tired and complain about your job
Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another
Remember that not one of us are without sin and we'll all answer to one maker
And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down
Put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and still around

Its true you don't know what you've got until its gone, but
its also true you don't know what you've been missing until it arrives..

source: anonymus

2008-04-28T01:25:00.001+08:00

truly heartfelt.
thank u for sharing.

2008-04-22T00:29:00.004+08:00

Peringatan buat Diriku yang Lupa

Kenapa Aku Diuji ?
"Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan; "Kami telah beriman," sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya kami telah menguji org2 yg sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui org2 yg benar dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui org2 yg dusta." - Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3

Kenapa Aku Tak Dapat Apa Yg Aku Idam-Idamkan ?
"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui." - Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216

Kenapa Ujian Seberat Ini ?
"Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya." - Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286

Rasa Frust ?
"Jgnlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan jgnlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah org2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu org2 yg beriman." - Surah Al-Imran ayat 139

Bagaimana Harus Aku Menghadapinya ?
"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi segala kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yang berkebajikan) , dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh, di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahanan di daerah- daerah sempadan) serta bertaqwalah kamu kepada Allah supaya, kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan)." - Surah Al-Imran ayat 200

"Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk" - Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45

Apa Yang Aku Dapat Drpd Semua Ini ?
"Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dr org2 mu'min, diri, harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga utk mereka... .. - Surah At-Taubah ayat 111

Kepada Siapa Aku Berharap ?
"Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain drNya. Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakkal. " - Surah At-Taubah ayat 129

Aku Tak Tahan !
"... ..dan jgnlah kamu berputus asa dr rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dr rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yg kafir." - Surah Yusuf ayat 87

Bukankah Al-Quran itu sesuai di semua zaman dan tempat, dalam apa jua keadaan?

source: http://www.iluvislam.com/