every minute i waited was quite torturing. looking at the analogue ticking makes my empty stomach turn upside down. bile lah aku nye turn kan. when my tester arrived, i knew i have to do it! i shouldnt bite my lip. cause that’ll make me even more nervous with those distractions around. i think i want to pour my emotions just like the rain, in the waiting area after the test, and of course, tried to contain it a lil more before mum called. then i realised i was hungry, and ate prata for breakfast. along the way i recited this du’a.

اللَهُمَّ اؤْ جٌرْ نِي فِي مُصِيبَتِي وَاخْلُفْ لِي خَيْرًا مِنْهاَ

Ya Allah berikanlah daku ganjaran pahala pada musibahku ini, dan gantikanlah bagiku yg lebih baik darinya.

i received this du’a from Ustadz in his class last week. Allahuakbar` if i hear correctly, Rasulullah taught this du’a to Ummu Salamah when she lost her husband in a war. then later, nabi received wahyu from Allah to marry Ummu Salamah. who can ask for a better husband than Rasulullah s.a.w? this du’a is read after innalillahi waiina ilaihi raji’un~

oh Allah, i hope to remain positive. sadness is normal after experiencing failure. i just need to overcome it.

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begitu lah kisahnya, satu ketika bile tgh ambil TP. well, i'll try again soon. dah lame tak menulis eh. i think i need a new space. i wont delete this blog though, its quite filled with memories.

alhamdulilah school has started. so my nights are filled with lectures, nothing new. my exams in march. and presentations await. night classes aint that bad after all after getting used to it. cume rase mase tu tak dimanfaatkan sepenuhnya. ruginya maryam! insyaAllah im going for an interview this thursday. rabbi yassir.